☮

:')

2011-12-13T19:57:00.002+08:00

So I was with faz @ my work place chilling. And then I see my money fly b'cus of the expensive lunch :'( And now.............. I'm all alone heh heh heh. Feels like a loner but, this quiet feeling alone seems alright. Maybe I should get use to this :-)

Time flies. In a blink of an eye it's gonna be new year soon. I'll start a new life by then. Not a new school, not new friends, but, my life will be a whole new start. I'm gonna try to be happy everyday. Start my day with a smile, spend it laughing, end it with a grateful smile before I sleep. This will be my 2012. Come to think of it, too many things happened this year. From knowing new people, losing friends, finding love, got played.. etc. Well, I guess this is what everyone says: "This is life." If I'm able to go thru a year that is filled with so many obstacles, next year won't be any problem. :') Till then love xx.

so many things

2011-11-16T12:03:00.001+08:00

found @ claire's blog, taken during her birthday chalet:)

I don't know what else to fight for anymore. Right now, I just want to break free from all this. I need to go out and free my mind more often. I don't want to be stuck at this moment where everyone else is alr moving on with something new in their life. What am I exactly hanging on to from the start? I'm done with this, I'm gonna go to the kitchen get some food and eat. It's my all time favourite thing to do right now♥

same old.

2011-10-10T19:06:00.001+08:00

So I can officially bid goodbye to my first major exam and...... I'm happy about it! :-)

Found a place to work with rina @ Airport! Thou' my first day was a mere 5 hours but I was half dead when I reach home. The place was so pack on my first day :/Yet, I'm quite excited for next day's work :3

Next thing on my list is: Overseas with my mommy (?) Seoul garden and chalet with fourtwo ^-^ USS + stay over @ hotel with my dear clique! ;)

I'm going to get myself busy this holiday, like rly rly busy so I won't have time to think about things like next year, you, him, them, they, her.

I wish I could read your mind. It's like you wna save this, but then again you don't. Or maybe I'm just putting high hopes myself on us. The us that will never be the same like last year. If 2010 can come back, I'll make sure we remain the same as how we were up till now. But then again, time won't rewind, and life goes on. I'll keep on trying.

So......... I'm still stuck here. Somewhere. 想念非常想念却什么也做不了.

what else.

2011-09-18T18:39:00.000+08:00

This five♥♥♥♥♥ sweethearts are super gorgeous in real life. As well as their magical voices wahahaha. I think I need to meet them again........

Headed to town with my mommy after TW's showcase! And we unexpectedly spend over 200bux @ H&M. ☺

It's not the first anyway. But then again, it will most prolly be the last time.

I like how lyrics always manage to bring out what I wna say. Then I'll keep replaying the song over and over again just to here that one line.

Guess I was wrong, but see I'm strong, wont take me long for me to move on. Please don't worry bout' me I'm fine, only gonna play the fool one time. And even then my eyes got wetter, so confused when I asked ask you if you love me, but I don't wanna seem so weak. So I'll let you go, I'll set you free, and when you see what you need to see, when you find you come back to me. And I hope you find everything that you need, I'll be right here waiting to see. It took so long just to feel alright, remember how to put back the light in my eyes. I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed. Cause you broke all your promises. What are words if you really don't mean them when you say them. What are words, if they're only for good times then they're done. When it's love, yeah, you say them, all of those words, they never go away, they live on, even when we're gone. I guess she gave you things I didn't give to you. But I couldn't stay away I couldn't fight it, I hoped you'd see my face and be reminded that for me it isn't over. Don't forget meI beg, I'll remember you still. Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead. Trying to think of something, anything just to keep me from thinking of you. But you know it's not working out 'cause you're all that's on my mind. All those crazy things you said, you left them running through my head. You're always there, you're everywhere. Right now I wish you were here.

Goodbye y'all, ✌

I'll never forget.

2011-09-11T17:19:00.004+08:00

Brother went in NS for straight 2 weeks. Today's only the second day and I miss him like mad. Can't imagine if I was him, I bet I would cry badly over there and have homesick again. Counting down to his book out date, can't wait to see him in his army uniform ♥♥♥

Had Jalan Raya with em' for the first time and it went out unexpectedly fun!
The food was wonderful, I didn't expect myself to eat at every house, but I did so :/ O well, I couldn't resist nice food!
The guys were being extra sweet b'cus they they lend us their slippers, hold our bags/heels ☺
Both the faiz even send me back home just b'cus I was scared to walk back that short route myself!

Back to school again tomorrow, gahahaha not looking forward to lessons at all, byeeeeee!

That night that night that night.

Be the one and only.

2011-08-21T21:22:00.000+08:00

♥♥♥

I'll muster up my courage, I'll be tougher than ever. Because shit happens, I know I'm braver than before. I'm sorry if I kept on trying to be in your life. I just don't bear to lose you. Things change, you change, maybe I change, and the feelings isn't the same anymore. I was fighting for you, then you decided to just push me away. I'm granting your wish. Just so you know, I'll be here like I said before if you ever need someone.

She said:

2011-08-13T12:43:00.000+08:00

"I told myself from the very start, "don't believe. don't trust. I should know this clearer than anyone else. most importantly don't fall. don't ever fall." Unknowingly, everything happen. Everything I told myself I must not eventually happen. I was so confident about myself. I was so confident from the start that I make sure all this won't happen. Then I fall. I fall so hard. I unknowingly started smiling to those texts, unknowingly started smiling to myself when I see you, unknowingly started smiling to myself in the middle of the night thinking about the entire day before, unknowingly started feeling down when I don't receive any text, unknowingly feeling my heart beat a little faster than usual when I see you, even from afar. All this happened, but I chose not to believe that it did. I chose to believe you will leave before I do. I mess things up and I tried to clear it up. But he chose to leave. He chose to turn his back on me even thou' he said he won't. I tear a little on the outside, but deep down I felt a pain in my heart. Then things started to change, it's like we don't know each other. But things got back to where it started again. I thought this time I got everything settle down for sure, then he proved me wrong. I let down my ego. I let down my pride. I did what I could, still he wasn't mine. He came and go, when he left, I told myself never to let him back into my life. Yet when he decided to come back again, I let him in. I foolishly believe every word again. It's not like I didn't try. From the first day when I told myself no matter what happens I will never fall. I tried to go back to the start, yet I know I'm stuck here. A place where I know I shouldn't be from the start. It's alright, I will be fine, I'm use to all this since I know what's exactly going to happen. Nothing can bring me down or rather I won't let anything bring me down. I'll smile everyday, I'll laugh everyday, I won't shed any tears, I won't go to school feeling all down and sad because I've still got my friends and I've learn to be independent."

Don't come back anymore.

2011-08-07T17:53:00.000+08:00

Butter pancakes. Chocolate pancakes. Cinnamon melts. Pizza. Sweet and spicy drumlet. Kfc. Cheesy bbq melts. Mcspicy without lettuce add cheese. Sushi. Strawberry ice blend. I'm craving for lots and lots of food right now. But, in 2 hours time.................. I know I won't feel that hungry anymore. But I still can't wait for dinner time :3

Chocolate peanut butter milkshake.................. Om nom nom delicious. Dined @ strictly pancakes with my relatives 2 weeks ago (Y) Shall drag mommy there with me after this month. Hehe. Then I'll take even more yummy looking pictures :-)

I'm so irritated. I wish you won't come back and interfere with my life anymore. Even thou' I wish you stayed zz. But I rather you just stop this come and go thing with me. I honestly had enough of trying to hate you, scold you each time you come back when I know I won't b able to do that. Stop being so fickle minded of where you want to be. Damn it.

Mommy thinks she's cool. I actually scream when she suddenly grab my neck blablablablabla. Hahaha, my ahma look so cute as the background :-)

O hi, this is daddy. We look rly weird/unprepared. So I guess I'm gonna have kfc for dinner tonight. But, I don't feel like having kfc. Uhm.......... Oke bye, I'm dying of boredom and I'm still deciding what to have to dinner later on. Bb y'all. This is so uninteresting. :(

Yellow flower

2011-07-16T18:09:00.007+08:00

The new dashboard looks so....... Weird but nice. Haha, this shows how long have I not been logging in and update this dying place. Not going to make gifs for the time being cus I'm rly lazy to compile them all.

O ya, I went over to NDP preview last saturday with my mommy and the spot we get was awesome! (Y)(Y) Even thou' the sun was madhotkjdhskjdhajdhka, the guys there was cute hehe.

I need/want to go to a flea soon looking at pretty girls posting loots they got from flea and how cheap they are. But then again, when I get there, it's like the things there are always over price despite the fact that it's suppose to b cheap.

School's fun actually. Especially during the prep period, it's like we own the canteen and get to eat first without having to queue up :-) Except for the fact that I've been studying last minute every single day once I get home.

Prelim is in 16 more days. And I'm going to start studying again soon.. Starting from the subject I dread most, social studies. O and, dnt is really getting tougher and tougher and the teachers are all killing me. Ugh.

Unhappy note: Chocolate melts wasn't rly as great as what I expected it to b. I still prefer cinnamon melts........................

I love Fridays. Because the periods are not boring and right after self-study is p.e! The time where I can run and shed some unwanted fats :-) And there will b free m&m for mua hoho.

Oke till then, I'm going to go and get prepared for the wedding dinner later! And for the first time ever in my whole entire almost reaching sixteen years of life, I'm going to wear wedges out. HAHA. Hope I won't fall and disgrace myself!

How do I show that I care, cherish, treasure, whatever I'm having now. Cus words can never tell that I rly do. But, I'm happy forever :3 ♥

I finally realise

2011-06-17T14:34:00.000+08:00

priya's sweet sixteen on the 28th may was a blast (Y)

Anyway, I've figured out my life. And I'm pretty much happy about it :-)

I doubt I've anything to b stress about other than friends and studies. Finally my heart is cleared from all the stupid shit I land myself into. Esp. guys. I'm so glad my late nights on the bed thinking about all this is well spend and fruitful! ^-^

My holidays r coming to an end, which means it's time for me to start studying real hard once school reopen. I don't even think I'm ready for any hardcore studying session..

And, my class picnic ystd was pretty much cool (Y) Other than not everyone attending and, lacking of water (as usual..) O and, I finally know how to skate! xD Not forgetting the fact that I can turn 90 degree straight huhu.

Okey bb y'all! ♡

I love too much.

2011-06-05T23:30:00.000+08:00

"Nothing is permanent. Especially people. Don't have your hopes high, friends become strangers, lovers become friends. And people leave." - Via twitter.

We put high hopes on them only because we know we r willing to do the same for them. The other party? They don't bother. We know it deep down, yet we refuse to accept the truth, and we continue to do what we can for them, continue being there for them, continue letting them use us. That's because we don't bear to leave them aside like how they did to us because we care too much. O well this pretty much my life.

I feel like saying I'm use to all this treatment, but, I know I'm not use to it at all. I'm not feeling numb towards it at all, the pain is still there, but, I know there's nothing I can do about.

On the happy side: I know I have some friends that r going to stay and stick with me for as long as they can or we can. At least I know this r the ones that r true.

So, I'm ending off. And I'm going off and. I CAN'T BELIEVE A 13 YR O GUY CAME AND TELL ME SOME WEIRD STUFF WHEN I M LIKE A PIECE OF SHIT. And I'm happy my shopping trip with my mommy on saturday was a pass(Y) Gonna update soon with my remainding pix. Bb, xo.

Never felt like this before

2011-05-15T18:30:00.000+08:00

This photo seems to be appearing everywhere. But, well I can't resist not posting this cus it looks so the sweet and natural y'know!! ♥♥♥ Especially the nice editing! Huhu. Everytime I see this photo I tend to just smile ;)

Before I start ranting, I should have use black as my border line. Now it looks so ugly cus there's like so many spaces in between tsk. Well its okey. Nobody bothers cus nobody looks here anyway so yeah man! I'm finally done with mid-years, but.... There's still prep prelim and also N's. O well, I'm gna enjoy first!

It's like, I'm trying and trying. Trying to do what? Trying to forget. Forget everything that has taken place before with those people who left my life. Why so? Because what's the point of remembering when I know it's not going to happen anymore. Or rather, I'm not even going to talk to them anymore.

So life with my dearest clique has been pretty awesome (Y) Our outings might not always success in a way like not all can make it. But, it's still fun and fun and more fun. We just keep running around get chase away by security guards and so. But everything's worth the fun :-D

O look! There's taufiq, huhu. Hehe xD

我忘不掉，忘不掉一切所发生过的事，我尝试过要忘掉，但是不知为何每次都会回想以前的记忆。应该是因为你对我来说实在是太重要，要把你忘掉，要把你取代，我也不知道谁能和你一样。后悔，但是什么做不了。只能等，等待有一天奇迹又在我们两人之中发生。

I shouldn't, but I want to.

2011-05-07T12:52:00.000+08:00

Where all my heart felt thoughts are being spilled out. Where all my deepest darkest secrets are finally let out. Where the pain starts to come back. Where the feelings I thought I've long gotten over. It's not over yet.

Why do people come and go. Why are the most important leaving and walking out of my life. Yet, they don't feel the pain. I'm tired of trying. Trying to fit in with everyone of them. When all I get is nothing in return. I tried not once. Not twice. But now I'm thinking of giving up. Nobody rly understand do they? It's okey. All this I'm going thru will bring me back to the ppl true to me, to my dearest family. I hope I won't regret.

And once again, our clique is back tgt as one. Closer than before, and our trust towards each other is definitely still there. I wonder how many times have we all drifted apart and come back tgt as one again. I love this feeling, when we are all so close like we all have someone to depend on.

Nobody knows how long this bond is going to stay as strong as now, but we all hope it's going to be long. For as long as we grow old. And be the legend. How I love this moments when all we do is just play catching, hide and seek, have a simple lunch and everyone's just laughing and talking about our secrets and troubles.

♡♡♡.

another story untold.

2011-04-23T12:37:00.001+08:00

I seriously honestly need ~~some~~ the motivation to study. I can't study @ home, I get distracted so easily. So the only way out is go out and study. Therefore, I've been going to tamp area this two days to meet nab and amirah to study:)

I can't wait for midyears to be over. But that doesn't mean freedom for me. I still have preps prelim and finally N's to go thru before I call for freedom... O wait, there's still one more year for me before leaving this school pfft. I can't wait to leave and start my whole school life afresh somewhere else.

Something else, I envy people who have a friend they can trust whenever they have big big big problems. Like they are who they rly are infront of them. Don't have the need to act or tell lies or be someone else just to fit in. I miss having a friend I can tell everything to. Someone who won't judge me because I told them my deepest secret.

Every hello ends with a goodbye. And every hello has a hell word, yet every goodbye has a good word. I've never rly notice this before till I saw a pic in tumblr. Does it mean whoever we say hello to is gna give us hell? And everytime we say goodbye something good is gna happen? M..

I think my post is getting wordy and out of point. But who cares, this is my blog my rants. Fuck yeah.

I've been spending lesser. Which is a rly good thing (Y) And it's not easy keeping money aside here and there. I tend to get the urge and just spend it.

Also, I don't know where all my camwhoring partners fly to. I've got lesser pix now. :(

Not forgetting the fact that I've step down officially from dance for this year. I can't bear to do so even thou' my attendance has been rly irregular the past years. I'm gna prove the teachers wrong for next year. I'm gna be good and attend all the sessions ^-^

And school has been.......... Wonderful awesome nice amazing fun happy energetic loving caring. Not. I'm so lazy to wake up @ 615am every weekdays.

Twitter > Facebook > Tumblr > Neopets > Bloghop > Youtube > Blogshop > Funshion. And my internet life just revolves around this 8 places. Okay till here xoxo!

Random thought:
There's so many things I wish I could tell you and not feel awkward. I miss talking to you. I still rmb when was the first time I saw you, the first time I met you, the first time I receive your text, the first time we talk, the first time we went out, the first time for everything. It ended before anything else took place. Up till now, you're the one person and the only one I know no matter how many others enter into my life, I can never forget you. Nor can you be replace even thou' shit things happen. It wasn't long, neither was it short, but it came to an end still. The only person is to blame will be me.

sometimes I wonder..

2011-04-17T14:08:00.001+08:00

what is like if I was given just one more chance to go back to the past and just restart this whole life of mine.

And of course those whom I thought would be here for me wasn't rly here for me. The truth is, no one's gna be here for me. The only people that's gna stay with me is my family.

They will be the only one who will never ever judge me but still love me for who I am. Even if I'm the ugliest, or the worst, or even if I make any big mistake, they are still going to love me, support me, care for me and give me whatever they can.

Friends? How many are there in your list? Countless. Yet, who are the ones who will ever be there for you like your family did? Maybe one or two. Or none. I'm going thru shit right now and the only people who are listening to my problems and understands them are my family. Or rather, my mommy.

I can't wait to get out of this shituation, this shitcondary school and start a new life somewhere else.

How about the ones who you were there for and they forget you just like that when they have someone new? They are the ones who claim to be there for you just like how you did for them. But that will never be truth for they only come to you when they have problems. Because the truth is no one cares. Not even the ones you thought care.
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oh yes I know my pictures are so contradicting to my words(if you bother reading).

I've got so much to say, but you won't stay to listen.

2011-04-03T10:51:00.000+08:00

the ones who always make my day happier, the ones who always make me smile with fail @ times hahahaha. ♡

I thought it was my fault, then I told her, she said you didn't felt how I felt because I cared too much, because I care and you didn't even bother. I said I want to take the first step again, but she told me not to, she said she didn't expect you to be such a person. I tried to change her mindset by turning you back into a good person, but she changed mine first, her words was stronger. It's okay, I'll be independent this time round. I'm sorry I tried to enter into your life again. I'm sorry I keep making the first move. I'm sorry that I miss you so damn much. I'm sorry for being an irritant.

you alighted from my train.

2011-03-19T22:28:00.000+08:00

first day of chalet/ awesome♡

Damn look @ my cute tarmizi's epic fail face hehe ^.^
So, the moment we all got there all cameras were up and the we started having party!!

He finally get to join but damn syaf don't wna take pic with him~
And then we all chill around, talks, pix, high, chill even more!

Apez = MOST outstanding hehe. ;)
And I am the biggest among the four :( But I don't care and shall not care!!

The two most irritating boys there, HAHA. (Y) But zak was unexpectedly nice hehe.

OH ADLI THE JOKER BOY :-D

You see, he was pointing to my camera sticker (spongebob+patrick) and wanted to act cute and be like them HAHA. retarded.

Oh yes, my new friend found: Black A'ai. ;)

Hey syaf the familiar face hehe.

Sha(I)keel(you), our belated birthday boy there and it was a surprise! Pix below ^^V

Seeing icha bully zak was part of my favourite scene!

Kening cacat boy teeheee.

MY UPINZXZXZXZXXZ! ;)

Say hi to apez! The one who has been cycling me EVERYWHERE!

Rahman the fail chef HAHA. All he does is scold me when he see me tskkkkk. Utang babi (?) HAHA.

I look at you then I copy you do same expression hahaha so cute~

Chalet made me know her even more (?) ICHAICHAICHAAAAAA~

Two gorgeous girls (Y)

Tadah~ Our surprise cake for him like I mention above (Y) We are so nice, sweet thoughtful bunch of people~

RINAAAAAARINAAAOHRINAAAAA HAHHA.

Our ipinzzzzz sign (Y) No idea why this pic so blur :s

APEZAPEZKASOTDIA HEHE.

ghufrannnnnnnnnnnnn!

I love you,

you love me/

cream face!!

you love food,

I love food/

PHOTOBOOTH(y)(y)(y)

and when they start getting high on some high music.........

O hai, there's my syed HAHA. MYYYYYYYY.

I pretty much irritate all of em' by saying that's my syed my hor. :d

I am such a pro photographer oh well don't need say also know ;)

Mmmmmhm, purrrrrr-fectzzzzz/

stupid act cool spider.

ooooo apez.

nazrinordin?!

and so the music gets rahman and zafrul even higher they got to some battle dance. ^.^

I was using my camera and he was using syaf's so both looking different direction but I thought it was cool hehe.

(y)

ooooooo. palat on my right!

let's go!

I think we both look damn different here mm.

here they are trying to compose some songs again and snap* I caught them :d

OKAY I AM SO HARDWORKING I POST LIKE ONLY A QUARTER OF THE FIRST DAY'S PIX THE REST WILL BE ON FB SOON CAUSE THERE'S A LOT OH DAMN:-D

I am gifted/

2011-03-12T10:26:00.000+08:00

cheering comp
No pictures related to what I've done for the past three days @ camp, but I swear it was a wonderful experience. If it weren't for their talk, I think I will never wake up mentally. I've grown much more mature and I know how to handle things properly. Me, family, school, life, just three days, they can change my mindset, they can make me tear, they can turn me into a better person, they made me happier. Or rather they taught me how to be happy:) I'll miss the three days and the group I was in, they made it fun too♡

dear fourtwo.

2011-03-05T11:30:00.000+08:00

love

when the sec4s were the last to perform all we do is camwhore and cheer/
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I'm fucking hell proud of my dearest class, FOUR-TWO ♥♥♥
Despite having our cheer done at the very last minute, despite having some students backing out suddenly, despite having a few learning at the very day itself, despite shouting so much the day before to all the other classes practicing, despite being so tired during x-country, despite being worried and scared that we won't win anything, despite having our mindset put as we will just have fun and go wild winning or not doesn't matter, despite knowing the other classes will do better...
We class fourtwo still did it, WE DID IT YES WE DID WE RLY DID IT (y) Getting the award of first, and also getting the overall champion!! Thou' our encore sucks, but I hope everyone enjoy. And all the picture taking sessions were hella awesome yo! And not forgetting the fact that after so many years of running, I finally got a placing of 23rd ;)
Summary: YESTERDAY WAS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE FOR NOW PHWEEEEET!
Ending off with......

FOUR TWO 4/2 4/2 FOUR TWO 4/2 4/2 FOUR TWO 4/2 4/2 LOVE YAH, LOVE YAH!♥ Xoxo

let's fly away tonight

2011-02-27T19:21:00.000+08:00

anyway the third and fourth pix shows a part of the candles by the side of the stairs. it was so extremely nice when we went over. and it was done by three person (?) mainly for ruiyi's birthday ;) rly nice, but a pity nobody took a picture of it. :/

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN TO MY DEAREST BESTFRIEND ONGRUIYI♡
I didn't get enough rest this weekend and that sucks.. And what's more, tomorrow's Monday again. Like so fast? Just the thought of having to wake up early in the morning, people who will spoil my day just by looking at them, disgusting sights, sitting at the table doing shit. And I promise myself I won't say a single vulgar for the whole week, if I can make it, I will............. Be happy for a week! So this days, I've been doing nothing useful but piling up nonsense in my head. I've got so much to do, but just the mere thought of starting to solve those problems I feel like quitting. Therefore, I'm going off to bath and wait for dinner to be home!

Hopeless.

2011-02-25T21:07:00.001+08:00

of learning how to cherish humans.

New flaw found. I think I'm someone who won't cherish what I have now and take everything for granted until I lose it. People might say, then try losing it, you'll feel the pain and learn to cherish it even more. But I think it's useless to me. I've lost them before, but the moment I get them back, I'm back to how I am before. I think I'm crazy. Maybe I should draw a circle and not step out of it until I learn. I'm pretty much hopeless alr. Oh damn. It's time to change for the better. Dear someone, pls help me. I can't even thou' a simple thing like plan a proper birthday, console my dearest friends neither could I control my mood.. F this. Bye.

And I think I should stop worrying and think too much. I'm so irritating.

past. /edited

2011-02-11T23:05:00.002+08:00

2010's pix with darlsyaf *insert hearts*

deleted the previous post. editing a new one.
hey guess what, I think you're so fake. I think you're so fucking fake. and thanks for rubbing into my situation. thanks for reminding me about the person I lose. this part is for you yeah.
>it hurts to see the person you love hurts. do you understand that when I see that* thing, my heart totally feels so...... weak and useless? do you know I feel so fucked up that I couldn't do anything to help cus the only help you need wasn't from me but from someone else. it's okay you know. I just want to see you happy and smiling everyday. just take good care of yourself and don't do anymore stupid things. and, to tell you the truth, I fucking miss you.
maybe it's true. it's true that I can't handle anything properly @ all.

can I have this dance.

2011-02-06T23:47:00.000+08:00

awesome people. fun time. bonded. disgrace ourselves together. laughing moments. everything together.♥♥♥

this time I believe you can do it. I want to be there, but I don't know how to. I'm trying to ignore, but I think I can't. I'm doing me and you a big favour. It's not killing you, it's killing me. But it's okay I trust that time will save me even thou' I think it's bullshit. be happy with whatever life gives you. just rmb, you're not alone going thru it. nobody may fully understand you, but they are there for you. not all but I know there's one who will go thru it with you. just smile but don't fake it. it may sound tough, but tell yourself you can do it, cus I believe you can. throw all the negative thoughts, time to put in positive thoughts.
goodnight love.

Last time.

2011-01-28T22:47:00.000+08:00

Attend school: loiter around, get high, rest awhile on the table, countdown for the period to end, errrrrr recess lunch = most important. I try to stuff information on what the teacher is teaching and @ the end of the day when the bell rings I still have to attend dance... Tiring yet fun ;)
I think this photo I look damn cute HAHAHAH.

Long rant? Let's go.
So I don't bother anymore? Is this what you've always wanted? Were you patiently just waiting for this day to come? I mean what's the point. What's the fucking point right? I don't even know what the fuck I fucking did. Oh well fuck yahhhhhhhh. Maybe sometimes I'm a little overboard but that's me. I can't change in. I feel like everything around me is spinning and I'm like gonna faint anytime oh dear god let me publish this post first before I faint or die. thanks. love yah. So okay I think I feel better. I'm running out of pictures to post. So bear with all this first. And back to my rant. We are all like on off on off off on off on and then we go, cause you're hot and you're cold...... So I can't figure out a shit you're fucking thinking. I'm not like some pro mind reader that can look str8 into your eyes and go omg I know wtf you're thinking right now.. I don't know why am I typing such shit. But, I'm just keep typing whatever my mind says. So at times I rly feel like going to you and just UGH SLAP YOU and SMILE. No harm, just fun. I think everyone's changing. Everyone's weird. People are taking me for granted I think. I tell you everything but I don't trust you. Is there such a thing? I think I'm just weird. Hahahaha. I'm a freak. Let's join the freak show circus. So I miss you and me and ... us. K. Okay, I'm like that because I don't understand why are you like this. Okay I think my post damn long nobody will even bother to read until here. Lol. So I shall shutup. From now, my heart will keep everything to itself, and just yah whatever. K bye! Hehe LIVE LIFE HAPPY I CAN'T WAIT FOR MONEY TO COME AND TOUCH MY AWESOME HANDZZZZZZ :hearts:!!

I'd never want to see you unhappy.

2011-01-16T19:46:00.000+08:00

And, I still want to be the reason behind your smile. But.

my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies r gray.

That feeling which words can't be describe yet in your heart yah know everything's just a lie to coax you.

Sadly not the fight between us. How long have we been fighting, going thru some fucking war?

Only the sixteenth day of this year, which is also still somehow the start of the year and I've nothing to be truly happy to be about yet. Well maybe not everything, but 3/4 of my life is screwed.

What's yours will be yours eventually no matter what happens during the process.

shall not expect much from a front camera but ystd was...... awesome. somehow somewhat till something killed me bit by bit. felt like this can go till the end of this year or worst forever and ever. I think lyrix r the best, I can relate to them no matter what I'm going thru, be it happy or sad. so I shall stop whatever crap I'm typing go look for food and think about whether to text or not to text. tell me something I don't know a day without you is like a year without rain sorry I loved you sorry I needed you and tonight I'm lovin' you. goodbye my almost love goodbye my hopeless dream I'm trying not to think about you. so long my luckless romance.

excited not excited happy not happy mixiu darling.

y u so shag?

2011-01-08T00:02:00.001+08:00

First week of school. Not bad, quite cool, but one thing sucks: extension of the bloody school hours. Mega shag, everyday reach home do homework halfway sure fall asleep.zzzz. But overall, I think my current class is quite cool. ;) Totally loving my sitting place, hopefully teacher don't rearrange or do any shit.

I'm so glad I've got time to spend with my dearest sitihunnysonny♥ after school this days, super happy! And, not forgetting: Dahlya sexy pig mate! :-D

I'm so happy my weekends are finally here. I can finally wakeup TEN FREAKING HOURS LATER than my usual days, HAHAHHA. And I'm so excited for monday cus O lvl results are all coming out and all the seniors will be back phweeeet ^.^

I'm so addicted to this face. HAHAHHAHA I'm so sleepy right now. I've been typing this post for like almost an hour.....z.z.z.z.z

(And I'm so glad kwx has a Polaroid cam, super happy that I can keep some for myself. Love yah bitch! <3)

(HAHAHAHHAHA when I see this pic, I suddenly rmb of those two small lil' ahlians wannabehhhhzhz @ kfc. Zzz. This finger are specially from us to you)
So I went nyp today, and it was quite cool. Love the food tasting place, super nice (y). Offtrack a lil', my eyes r closing.......... I'm so sleepy. We all had to leave even before the dancers went on stage, pfft wasted :-(

Kfc > Popular > Cotton on > Home > HERE BLOGGING MY BORING LIFE!
Ending off with a very cute picture of mua HEHEHEHEHAHAHAHOHOHOHO:

So today, was the first time in this new year there's a lil' bit of salt water. Pfft, thought I could break my own record of not having any. Over shag. Over shit. Over. I swear for now, you'll never be a part of my life ever. So fuck you and bye. *sexy middle finger*. K bye xoxo! I'm feeling super cold right now!!

you're so cute.

perfect stranger ♥

2011-01-01T21:28:00.001+08:00

I'VE GOT SO MUCH TO UPDATE BUT......... I'LL JUST SAY HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL MY LOVE ONES! ♥♥♥ ALL I WISH FOR TWOZERONEONE IS FOR EVERYONE TO LIVE LIFE HAPPILY AND SMILE EVERYDAY! (;
ystd was a blast, ystd was awesome, ystd I saw my perfect stranger, ystd I saw this cutie pie with an awesome smile, ystd I saw so many different type of ppl, ystd was the first time I attend such event, ystd was awesome, ystd was....... a memorable day. thanx to those who were with me, thanx kwx for my first polaroid pix, thanx ory for accompanying me, thanx to em' for letting me join em' ystd.

all pix will be from kwismazzzzzzieieieeiehehhee!

2011, pls be kind and nice to me, I don't want anymore bad things to come upon me, I don't want anymore unwanted heartaches, and pls give me the courage to do smth I had to do two years ago.

The more I mention about you, the more I see you. This few days I have super weird + cool dreams! And when I wake up I can still rmb what I dream clearly! So I must have been like.... half-awake?! Off to bath and to airport to send my dearest birthday cousin off! I love you woman! Come back and I'll treat you makaaaaaanznznznznz! (;

I'M NOT READY FOR SCHOOL! I'M NOT READY TO BE A SEC 4 GIRL! ANYTHING RELATED TO SCHOOL IS UNDONE I MEAN SRSLY UNDONE. I DIDN'T TOUCH ANY HMK. I'VE NOT BUY MY SCHOOL BAG AND SCHOOL SHOE HOMY!! Xoxo! Happy new year once again, I love everyone! C;

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2010-12-26T14:33:00.000+08:00

Hi. I don't like this feeling I'm going thru right now. What's up with all this fake people. What's up with people coming and going like it's some funfair entrance. I'm so sick of all this. One long complain; some parts for them some parts for her some parts for him, no names stated, but if you feel guilty, I've got nothing to say either.

So are they like the only one in your eyes that the rest are invisible? I just feel like, we are only here when you needed us, or when you don't have someone else. I just feel that you're so fake. You're so........ Weird. I don't even know if this thing that you've been going thru is a happy thing for you or is a sad thing for me. Don't get the wrong idea that I want the whole of you to me, cause I don't need it. I just miss how we were before, when everything's going right. I didn't expect everything to be gone so quickly. And I'm right, nothing last forever. Am I so nice to cheat/lie to? Am I someone who looks like I've no feelings @ all? I'm a human for your sake, I'm a fucking human who has emotions/feelings/brain/heart/mind/whatever. In my mind I always thought you change for good. It may not be like last time, but I'm always here no matter what mistake you made previously, I'm still me, I still treated you like nothing happen before. And what do I get in return? Nothing and lies. So I'm someone to let you use for free? I'm someone to let you make some other bitches/bastards angry/jealous? If karma won't bloody come after you, I will. Revenge will. One day you will regret. Fucking regret for treating me this way when I've done nothing @ all to get such treatment from a jerk like you. I think you're just treating us unfair. You scare everyone. @ least I'm not the only one who thinks that way. @ least I've another 2 person standing by me supporting all this facts. The rest may not have realise, the rest may not notice, but trust me, one day they will. One day they will realise what you wearing are mask. Different mask everyday. I don't see why we should treat you so nice, or in any way like before. I'm so sick and tired of all this. I don't feel like staying, but I'll just let everything flow naturally. Sometimes you just make me wna quit everything I've been hanging on for so long, you just make me don't want to continue anymore you just make me wna stop and do nothing. I don't know in your eyes, what a person am I to you. Am I someone you feel like talking to and come along or someone you rly treat as a listener. I admit I miss you. I miss how we were during that point of time. You won't know how much I smile to myself when I see you. Even your name. I don't know who to tell to about how I feel about you. I don't want to be like some other bitches who gossip about ppl to others and, the other hand click so well. One word: Fake. You tell me this now, later you act the other way. It's so weird. It's so scary. Sumtimes I feel like telling you str8 in your face how I feel about us and everything, but I know the ending will be fight awkward argue. I dw to lose a friend like you even thou I alr lose half of you to someone else. Girlfriends? I don't know how many I have some are so fake some are so... real but still fake. "This was what made our friendship stronger" yeah it did for a period of time and...... Maybe I don't understand. Maybe I'll never understand. Maybe one day when it's my turn I will finally understand and I will know what it's like to be in that position. But smth I don't get it, why can't you leave a few for me/us/them.. I'm so lazy to continue this post, I'll just end it off with maybe one or two pix. Whoever who read finish this rant, thankkkkkkku for taking ur time to read.

Just love and merry belated kwismazzzzzzz everyone♥

"Hello I think I've fallen for you."

2010-12-23T16:03:00.000+08:00

Dear Santa, this christmas I'm only asking for you to let me meet someone who isn't fake, who I can trust, who I can talk to everyday, who I can pour out all my problems to and listen to me, who will always be there for me physically or not, who won't betray me, who won't back-stab me, who will never lie to me, who has only one face and not some two-three-faces-jerk, who loves me for who I am, no don't have to always give in to me, no don't have to fully understand me, no don't have to see me everyday, no don't be perfect even thou' I made it sound like this person has to be perfect, yes make mistakes, but. To just love me.

Ugh, I'm waiting for photobucket to let me upload pix or else I can't freaking press the PUBLISH POST button, tsk tsk tsk and more tsk! AHH the bloody thing is still not working, and I've w8ted 4 like an hour!!? .-. So... I ended up using blogger's..

Why must you change. Why must you change into this person? Why must all this happen. Well @ least I still have em'. Disappointed? Ha expected speechless. K bye! Time to eat more and.... Later try to find thing to do or just watch tv and eat non-stop ;) I love 91.3fm! ♥♥♥

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2010-12-16T15:35:00.000+08:00

nihon mura with love ones.
I need cash. I need money. Lots of em'. I need to change mua wardrobe. I need to replenish mua wardrobe with btr clothes. I need to buy new accessories. I need to buy new bags. I need to buy.... A lot of stuffs! I need to pack my whole room this holiday, but I'm so lazy just by seeing the mess. I need to meet so many ppl by this holiday, but I'm either too lazy or I'm busy with work. K, back to tv with cartoon/drama/movie; Mass update for tumblr; A little blogshopping ;)

"A simple bye can make us cry, a simple joke can make us laugh, a simple care.... can make us fall in love."

Let's play pretend.

2010-12-10T16:33:00.000+08:00

Ten days ago pix finally up.
So lately my mind has been wandering around, or rather my heart. Every 1111, I tend to make a wish regarding this particular person. I don't know what's wrong with me, this year, I've been changing my wish, no, I've been changing the person's name. I'm so sick of waiting for a miracle to happen... Well, within the time period of me being fifteen, I still can't find someone who can understand me, I give up. Maybe I'm not looking for someone who's status will be, my boyfriend, but rather......... K, I don't know how to explain this, but someone like a boyfriend, but not as a boyfriend status. Mmmhmm. So many people's attach this day, dear love, when will you come knocking on my door?

"miracles happen once in awhile"

Because I am sick of trying

2010-12-04T22:44:00.000+08:00

Obf's ♥♥♥
In other's ppl eyes we may have change, but miraculously, we didn't feel any changes between us even thou' it has been ages since we met. We still ~~gossip~~ fill each other up with other people news and state facts as much as before, we still do crazy things, we still got a life! (y) Sometimes, some ppl are meant to stick with us forever thru out our whole life despite what may have happen between them before and maybe that's when the word forever can come in handy :) R/s and f/s: Compare them tgt and ask yourself which one will have a higher possibility to last forever. I always wonder, why do I fall in love @ this age/this time/this place/this person. There's so many people in this world, but why that particular person? (I'm just saying, not like I like anyone or whatever.. Maybe.) My daily stalker's out of town, so I doubt anyone ever comes here? Bye, gudnitez folkz!

If I can I would just stop pushing me.

Currently

2010-12-03T00:17:00.000+08:00

Ystd on my way to work, I figure out smth in my mind that I figure our smth during the chalet. (I actually alr thought of what to write and everything, but then poof I was so tired everything's gone.) So it's smth like, why should I love someone when it hurts me and does not bring me any happiness unless the person loves me back more than I do. I mean, I am circled with friends, with friends that can make me happy, laughing, smiling (yes kinda contradicting to my previousx2 post .-.) Plus, what's the point of loving and waiting? Maybe all this struck me because the whole chalet was full of fun and everything. So maybe all this are just bullcrap from me. Well, all I'm gna wait now is for miracle to happen, and this overseas guy to add me on fb (okay I know it's stupid and gay but whatever.) This is it! Lastly, I can't w8 for tmr! (Y)

Happy birthday bitchy broz, I lubbbbbbbz you very much ♥

Life goes on.

2010-11-30T19:36:00.000+08:00

(It wasn't the best as I expected, but still they made my day.)
Life must go on no matter knocks you. I always wonder, in my previous life, what do I owe this people who keeps on showing me attitude for no reason. C'mon, get a life stop showing people attitude when we did nothing wrong. You don't own this world neither do we owe you. :) And if you call yourself a friend, please don't call yourself my friend, cause you seriously don't fit to be one. I know I've got my other clique of friends, but where do I place when it comes to them and us/me? They first. I'm not asking you to priorities me or whatever. I just want you to stop using me. Whatever, I'm sick of you and your different faces.
I should seriously stop having expectation on others, even the ones closest to me.

So far yet so far.

2010-11-26T15:03:00.000+08:00

It's funny how we're so freaking hell far apart yet I seem to have you stuck in my brain/mind/heart or wherever place. I alr decided that I'll make a wish about you during my birthday. It's stupid how I'm gna waste it (since it's a once in a year thing) on something which prolly might not even happen/occur. Everyone has a love story to tell, a wonderful experience to share with people proudly. How about me? All my stories are broken. I almost died/faint in the park ystd morning.. I thought so much ystd, I've got so much to say, but here I am staring @ this white box filled with nonsense and not know how to write. What's the point of crying all the day long bottling up all this shit and kill myself? If saying was as easy as doing, if doing was as easy as saying. Let's rewind back to the time when we're talking even though you busy with some other ppl, and that's the moment when I felt important to you. "生活中的挫折会打倒我们, 但是我们可以选择要不要重新站起来" - Karate Kid's subtitle. I miss you very very much even though I know I will most prolly not see you ever again.

The big day's tmr, I was expecting a happy birthday from you, but no I'm just dreaming.

It's not easy. It never was.

2010-11-23T13:37:00.001+08:00

Why is it that the good thing has to always come to an end so fucking fast while the bad moments always stay so fucking long. I mean like the bad moments may have seem to alr last for an hour or so but in actual fact only 1 minute pass. Life's so unfair. Or was it even fair from the start. Truth is, I'm very tired of life. I would rather be in Taiwan♥ for days and months with my dearest tour group/tour guide/bus driver. That is life for me. All I do is play eat awesome food every single day laugh talk camwhore sleep be happy and smile from the bottom of my heart. I miss everyone there actually. Everyone seems so plastic nowadays. Prolly because I'm away too long and so many things change.. This days, I just keep crying to myself. So how long more must I take to get back to this environment. I'm so so so tired. I don't want to try anymore. I just need to take another break.

Four more days, I'm not excited @ all..

Something powerful.

2010-11-05T14:12:00.002+08:00

Let's backtrack the time to 28th October! (Last day of school + Kwx's fifteenth!)
• Can't believe kwx (birthday girl) cried today, and she wet my uniform with her tears.
• Things went a little out of plan and yay! Luck I can lie pretty well and yup, the surprise was cool ;)
• So we somehow celebrate a little by playing our-clique-game-@-ehub! (Hide and seek cum catching!!)
• Everything was cool, headed back to arcade afterwards, and homesweetzhome.
• Next day (29th) went over to bugis for steamboat with clique (excl. 1, incl. 2.~)
• My table (Me, ry, val, wx) went rly mad by playing stupid link word games so the loser has to eat the food since we took a lot of it hahahahhaha. Noisy pigs.
• Headed back to ehub to celebrate.... HELLOWEENZ! (Mention in previous post.)

30th + 31st October! (Marina bay sands stay :))
• The moment everyone step in 4908 our reaction was like: "Wa! Wa! Wa! So big!! Can sleep a lot ppl inside here! Wa two television somemore! The sofa can make into bed somemore leh!" - Typical. But I swear it was rly big and cool.
• I started to take picture and everything, thn eat!
• Thought we would all rot inside the hotel (except for those casino players and so.), but luckily we didn't :)
• Smuggled in junk food from Maxwell! And I saw Sheryl&family. O-em-gee-o-em-gee!! I was damn excited ;)
• Went night swimming, the big swimming cold was bloody cold I swear. So we went to Jacuzzi to chill with the hawt water!
• Transformers (Fell in love!) > Ghost show > Fell alseep!
• Morning swim > Dim sum @ Ion's Imperial (I forgot the name) > Home :)

Last but not least, I'm so cute:

MWAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!
Oh and ystd was a blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaast with my dear yobuseyo: Kohwanxuan (Y)

Step by step.

When I first met you.

2010-10-30T12:19:00.000+08:00

I feel like cutting long bangs. But I don't know if it's weird. Or is there such fringe called long bangs. LOL. This is random. But, I'm going off to somewhere soon so I'll update this space like tmr or tmr tmr? :)

(I miss butterfly clip. Shall go get one again another day.)
So.. Celebrated Halloween @ Escape again with more ppl this time! Played 2 games and spend like an hour queuing for the Fortune Telling. :s

So I ask a question.. And I got an answer I didn't expect to get. So I was very bothered by it :/ But but, Sandra's prediction was cool hehe. If hers come true, maybe mine will too. Okey shutup I think I'm going crazy over what she tell me.

So ya, our last stop was Pirateh Ship. (Manage to cut the queue since we saw Zaf&co. HAHA) :D:D I scream like some madshitwoman but I doubt so I'm worse than Jo and my hair flew aroundndndndnd. I thought my clip flew off, LALDADADADADADADDA.

(Picture perfect. So what else can you say about pictures? They're gr8 liars hehe.)
Before heading back home, headed to mccafe and had my favourite: Caramel Frappe! (Y) HUAHUAHUAHUAHUA.

K, I'll be going over to the IR to stay for 1night with fam+cousins. ;)
And this brog will be updated with all the Halloween pictures sooooooon. If I'm not lazy xD
So yeh. I was thinking about the past, which led to this title so lalamamababadodo.
K, bb, I love you all like srsly I do. *insertshearts* XOXO.

I miss you. More than words.

2010-10-23T14:21:00.000+08:00

Went out with mommy last sunday to the supreme court :) And the balloon she help me take from the person alr inflated and died. Pfft, lousy. The place was quite nice, and the first time ever I took photos non-stop w/o caring others :D

Went to town with my four other love ones to shop! Didn't manage to get anything since nothing rly caught my eye :( Our first time going to cityplaza also! Quite a weird place but has cheap stuffz! ;)

Taken this in the train. We were all despo to take a group pik since we didn't manage to do so. So we all crowd around and form a circle and yaw! After non-stop camwhoring we played heartattack while standing up. HHAHAHA. It was rly retarded but yaw! Iloveem'. *insertsheart*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GHUFRAN @ 21/10/10. (Y) After so long of not slacking and bonding with em', I finally did so on his birthday. Thinking it would be awkward and nobody would bother layan-ing me, I was wrong hehe.

So we all headed to pool (hhehehehehe sneak in pass!) @ ehub, watch em' play awhile and kwx came to my rescue due to some reasons :s Love her so damn much. So everything was cool cool cool.

Headed back to watch em' play bowling, and then I was going in and out of the place walk around like some no-life-er. After the whole game ended... Went to the back and camwhore with em'! ;) All pix @ fb!

Headed back to pool, then we played the soccer machine thingy which I dk what's the real name for it. :D:D We were damn addicted we played non-stop! And we play like as if we bbq-ing satay! I likeeeeee (Y)

So after neverending games with em', headed back home! I love the number 21♥♥♥
I also finally showered em' with tons of hugzzzzzzzz hehe.

And so.... Ystd went out with ^ and shihying! Didn't manage to take pix tgt :(
Caught the movie: You again. Quite a nice show I would say, talking more on karma. So I always believe: What comes around, goes around!

Went over to zik's house slack slack slack had dinner @ Mr chicky rice after so million years! :D:D And hsh!

I think my blog's a real bore D:

Round and round and round.

2010-10-17T19:47:00.000+08:00

♥ Best of the best.

Went out w/ my five lovelies to watch movie and slack on the last day of our paper! :D:D Headed2ehub and w8 for that ^ vvvvvv slow aunty. Camwhore a lil' while w8ing 4 em' to arrive, caught the 535pm movie: The child's eye/童眼. Rating: 4/5 since the ending was like a no ending thing.

Went to carpark run around like no life-ers. Obviously we camwhore like there's no tmr also. I don't have most of the pix since Sandra bought her dslr and everything's w/ her :( Cfm take damn long to reach our hands HAHAHAHHA. We took jumpshot and I failed cus my shirt flew up. LOL. Rather embarrassing cus ry keep laughing @ me :(

Afterwards headed over to eat @ kopitiam (Y)Then we got damn bored so kwx suggested we play heartattack. LOL I swear our table was hella noisy. But we didn't care. Then I got vvv irritated by the aunty who kept on staring @ us so we change destination and we went to five floor! :D

We continue our heartattack. But since kwx kept losing we played concentration. As usual noisy, but didn't care. We were damn high, losers get hit by each of us. ;) Made a rap while playing and we irritated A-L-O-T of ppl.

Next day headed to Claire's bbq. Awesome! But no pix w/ me yet! Seven of us finally took pixes tgt!! :D:D Reached home before 1130! Out w/ my lovelies again tmr to town yaw! ^^v

Yakun @ Ws > Supreme Court exhibition > Raffles place!
Bought a dress and a bag from dorothy perkins. I love mommy! Spend almost the whole day bonding w/ her. ;) Pixes of it will be up soon. K till here. Bb, I'll keep this space alive! Xoxoxo.

2010-10-01T14:14:00.001+08:00

Awesomelovers. ♥

- HELLO AND LET'S WELCOME OCTOBER. (Y)
- English/Chinese paper one down! Thou' I think I won't score well, I hope my paper two can pull me up. :)
- This blog will prolly be dead till everything's over or what.
- Mommy's away to Cambodia till Sunday, and I miss her badly :(
- I like missing school, and waking up late but not fearing to have detention since daddy wrote letter for me.
- Why are you even feeling guilty? I didn't even mention names anywhere, unless your conscience ain't clear.. And I think that's just one out of 23456789876543213423 reasons you talk bad behind ppl's back.
- Just to let y'know this won't bring you anywhere. You'll regret and one day k-a-r-m-a will fall on you. Like what ppl always say: What comes around, goes around.
:D
- When you're reading this are you thinking that I'm referring to you when I didn't mention names? HAHA. You can go home and suck my balls yaw.
K, bb till here xoxo. Goodluck all for the remaining papers!

F-m-l.

2010-09-29T11:58:00.002+08:00

Today will be the fifth consecutive day that my eyes got tortured by my feelings. It's like a tap flowing non-stop and no matter what tools you use to try and fix it, it just won't stop it but keep going on. I've never rly felt this way before. Useless, gutless, hopeless. Pretty much a sucker. I've got to leave and let go one day. But I didn't expect it to be so soon so sudden. It's alright, cause from today onwards I'll learn to be independent... I hope I can.

Anyway, today's the 29th which also marks my dearest mommy's big big day.
I'm sorry I had to be a sad, sick daughter today, but I promise the celebration tonight will be awesome. I love you mommy, and happy birthday. ♥

All alone wandering in the dark.

The ceiling's down tonight to stay with me.

2010-09-26T18:21:00.001+08:00

I'm so glad this asshole up there is willing to bring a can of gas drink for me and buy stick bras with me tmr. :)
On the very super negative side: I give up. I seriously don't want to know anything or got anything to do with you. I've even prepared to kill myself tmr when I talk to you. My long speech, I wanted to text you the long speech, but I've decided to talk to you face to face. It may make things worse but why not give a shot. I doubt so I'll cry or scream at you. Cause my job now is to show you that I'm strong. Stronger than what you think I am. No way I'm letting you pull me down. So what if some parts of this post are lies, @ least you can't figure out which is which. I thank you for lying to me for the past few weeks, prolly even months, but I thank you for being honest with me @ the end. Goodbye my friend, and hello stranger.

Love is friendship set on fire.

Look @ me.

2010-09-23T16:32:00.000+08:00

18th: Went to Sentosa to celebrate + surprise Val for her fifteenth birthday!
The 7 of us were there except for Shihying! Since she had tuition that day, but we manage to meet each other! :D:D

(I look so weird!)
But the whitewhite thingy on our finger was to attack Kwx! HEHE. Got ourselves very very smelly :s

20th: Finally my bestbestbestfriend turn sixteen ;) Celebrated his birthday @ Seoul Garden. AWESOME. Gna bring my clique over somedays! (Y)

21st: Me and Val's special lucky number, register no. + birthdate!
Her big actual day with non-stop singing in school xD

Birthdays birthdays birthdays. This month is full of birthdays, everyone turning a year older. When's my turn huh!! Also, I need to go diet yaw. K, bb, gna find some motivation and start on my ss :@ LOVE YA 2.
8 more days: English + Mother tongue Paper 1.
14 more days: English P1 + SOCIAL STUDIES (hell)

Right here, right now.

2010-09-12T16:58:00.000+08:00

Accompanied mommy in the afternoon:
Fetch brother to driving > Pray > Ikea (FOOD!) > Fetch brother from driving > Home!
Ikea food was aweeeeesome! I ate ONE HAWTDORG AND ONE ICECREAM. ♥!! Om nom nom nom nom yummy ^^V

Mommy actually wanted this to be erased since she was wearing her specs xD
Went2town with mommy♥ ystd to see her bag shoe and my jacket! lalala. But we both got stuck @ the bilabong section cus' the bag was super super super madly awesome. (Y) And sadly we walked off w/o it cus the price was.. 70bux + 50bux :/

So while we were in the car on the way there, we were talking about our dressing.
Mommy: Why you wear dress never tell me ah, then like that I can suit you ma. *translated*
Me: HAHAHAH, you no matter what cnt suit me one la.
Mommy: Also nvm, 人美穿什么衣服都美. (Which also means: So long as you're pretty wear what also pretty)
Yup, I've got a very thick skin mommy who keeps on self-praising :)

Before I left I turnover and we smiled to each other. HEHEHE. about 19 hours ago via TweetSG
The guy gave me mocha chip instead :( but since he looks hawt... Shall let it go ;) about 19 hours ago via TweetSG
Mommy treat me double chocolate frappe! Large somemore. ;) about 19 hours ago via TweetSG
(Copy and paste from ystd's twitter updatee! I was smiling to myself non-stop while drinking, like idiot ah ^^)
ENDING OFF WITH..

..

BATMAN♥ AND I-D-K-WHAT-IS-THE-GREEN-GUY-NAME!
I bring them everywhere, like srsly everywhere. So long as I bring my owl bag out, they're also out. I love love love batman. Call me childish, I don't give a shit.
(Waiting for batmobile's turn to be release!)

School's tmr. Start of Term 4. I'm not prepared for Eoy(s). I rly hope I won't freaking retain. I hope I manage to get promoted. I've done physics. And maths. But not d&t. :( Okey, bb. Time2watch Upin dan Ipin! ♥♥♥ Rmb to click on nuffnang! ;))

You're the best to my friend.

2010-09-05T14:07:00.000+08:00

It's sad how we're not in the same class anymore. But, I always talk to @frzwh about how I miss sec2, how I miss the back two row, how I miss the times all we do is eat eat eat (HAHA), also how close we were, we may have drifted apart a little, but I believe one day, just one fine day we'll be like before:)
To ongruiyi!

How long have we all been apart? But I'm lucky that we all got back tgt again. I miss you guys like srsly. I love you guys like there's no tmr. I love how I can make so much noise again with you all. T'chers' day celebration was awesome! Esp. how we sat tgt (above four!) Hehehehe.

SITISITISITI! My dearest son :) Hehe. Nvr fail to make my day any happier. Thou' I always to cheer her up. But, I still love her very very much! And, sharing every secret I can to her, and then we'll both be drunk on the street walking hand in hand like some les mate. (Y)

Back to the sec1/2 days when the four of us were so freaking close. But still we didn't forget. And *winkwink* ah, don't forget our deal date! Shall remind you guys again when we meet ;)

Lastly, life recently has been towards the positive side. ♥♥♥
K, I don't know if I should go Jalan Raye/Raya with them, it's gonna be awkward, but I feel like joining them cause it seems fun. Hm. So yup. Fasting month = VERY VERY HARD TO SURVIVE! But I'm glad it's coming to an end. When? 09/09/2010! YEAYYYYYY ^^V.
Did I mention how many birthday present I must get this year? :( Ugh, cause its hard to know what to buy for them!!
Okey, off I go. Bb, xoxo. Rmb to click on my nuffnangs if you see it ^^.

Everything is going to be okay.

2010-08-29T13:39:00.001+08:00

Ohyeay, and the person inside the photo which consist me and faz is Farhan Shah♥!!! Gorgeous yawwwwwww ;)
ONCE AGAIN, HELLO TO JINGYU THE HAPPY KID!! *Smiles widely like an asshole* :D
All I can say is: Goodbye to the bad times, sad moments and tearing all day long days.(Maybe not.)
I'm alright with my six love ones, I'm alright with that asshole A. whom I didn't talk to for weeks, I'm back to normal with that dumb slut-whore-bitch Z.!
Not forgetting my usuals who has been there for me ^^V I'm damn damn happpppppppppppy now!

(Dearest granny with us @ Henderson Wave!)
But.. there's still a few things that isn't okay yet. I told someone my deepest darkest secret. And I only told ONE person, I've got another secret to let out, but I don't know who can I tell this particular one to. Maybe I should just tell my two lil' puppies.
K, till here bb! More updates @ twitter.com/jingyuz & jingyuisawesomez.tumblr! :)

Universe.

2010-08-23T19:02:00.000+08:00

I miss the 1,2,3,4,5,6,7... 7 of us being tgt. I still love everyone of you. One day we must all go out tgt and promise not to leave anyone out no matter how awkward we feel. (Or maybe just me.) Thou' not everyone will see this, but I'll tell you guys tmr during recess. Honestly speaking, I miss those days we slack and spend our time as a whole making a din in public but don't give a damn. ♥

World most irritating annoying asshole best buddy brother friend of mine xD Thou' sometimes I hate you a lot like how you hate me, but still, I KNOW YOU CANNOT RESIST ME. HAHAHAHAHAH. I know you will read until this cus you're WORLD FAMOUS NUMBER 1 STALKER. BUT. You should know what I wna say, cus, HELLO TO THE NEW ARTHURGOHWEEKIONG. I'll try to adapt to that new one, but I'll miss the old one thou. :p

School's alright, stress about maths. Standard much. But, I still have my joy and laughter from my love ones. So it's better than nothing. I'm very lazy to continue. Till here, xoxo! ;) &....... (Hope daddy comes home late today so I can go out and slack with those asses! *cross finger*!)

I need someone.

2010-08-18T19:57:00.000+08:00

@marriot hotel after buffet (Y) awesome crappppppppzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

> I don't like the people you're hanging out with either. But have I ever comment on your life or on your friend before? I didn't. No matter how much I dislike them. I know you're not the only one talking about this shit. All those bengs are also doing it. I don't freaking care. I was expecting you to be the only one who will understand me, and understand this. It turned out to be a disappointment. All I wish for is you to understand and know what I'm going thru. I don't rly care who you hang out with. Cus I know you're still gna be my best-brother-friend. Yet now? I don't know who influence you or it's just you. It's alright if you don't understand or don't want to talk to me anymore like before. I'll still be here if you need me. And, I know you'll read this. I know you will.

> I lost two. @ one go. I didn't expect this to happen. So unexpectedly and sudden. I don't know how to face the both of you. It may not seem awkward to you both, but it's very awkward for me. I just find it so.. weird. I was hoping miracle to happen, then I found out some heartbreaking news. It's alright, I'm use to it anyway. I didn't expect much also, maybe I did, but secretly.. I'll still smile and tell you, "It's alright, go ahead and do whatever that makes you happy. If you're happy, I'll be happy too."

So wordy and boring, I know. But, I'm just bored. Very bored.. Ending off with..

beelaa's 15th!

Left or right?

2010-08-12T20:18:00.000+08:00

> My second day fasting with them :) It may sound dumb or stupid or both but, I'm trying and learning to control. I'll try and do it the whole month xD
> I FINALLY UNDERSTAND THE DAMN TOPIC: SOLVING QUADRATIC EQUATION USING THREE METHODS.
> I pass my geography common test which gives me more motivation to study now (Y)!!
> Lastly, I've to rush two things before this coming weekend. Which means I only left like a day? :s

Anyway, I have no idea whether to believe or just leave it like this. I'm hearing two side story. I don't want to get my heart all broken again over the same thing. So, I've decided not to give so much hope on this thing. I must be stronger than before. I'll pick myself up bit by bit. K, I think I'm gonna go central now! Bb, *inserts a big wide smiley face with small eyes*! Xoxo.

When I'm ready, you're not.

2010-08-07T14:34:00.000+08:00

I'm damn lazy to update here. But I've decided to so. And, I think nobody even bother to come here. :\ But still.. Time2update!

(Mommy took this!!)
The title states it all. It's always like this. When I'm all ready to fall and believe again, somebody have to proof me wrong AGAIN telling me such thing doesn't exist so I should grow up and stop believing. When I have doubts, you tried to clear it, you make me believe you, and then? And then when I say "I'll believe you, I'll believe it once AGAIN", you lied. So why am I believing it AGAIN, or rather why should I. Thanks for proving me wrong and letting me know earlier. At least I got a little more space to walk backwards and not continue walking forward and fall right in to the damn trap you set. I thank you for that.

I need to start studying. But all I do is say and not do. I admit it.

Let's walk down the aisle of love.

2010-07-31T15:25:00.000+08:00

Advance birthday celebration with Cyrus (Y). My face look damn red that day due to i-d-k what reason. :) But it was quite awesome since it was mostly the awesome me who planned it xD

Out to study the next day with those ass :) Thou' it was a sad day for me that day, but everybody made me happpppppy. HAHAHHAHA. And, the day before I took X-rider @ ehub with them. Nvr in my entire 14 years will I thought I would take it. But it was awesome shitzzzzzzzzzzzz.

Syaf babeebabyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!♥
Thanxxxxxx for trying to cheer me up time and again. And, I wna go town with you soon okay! Must quick quick, hehe.

Zaffffffzafzafffffff!

FIRST TIME, I FINALLY TOOK A PICTURE WITH THIS ASSHOLE.

Happy belated birthday once again boneyyyyyy! xD Thanxnzmz for letting me your boneeeeyyyyy arm ystd. Incl. the movie thing (Y). HEHEHEHE.

ZIKKKKKKK! And, Syed the another asshole that I finally get to take picture with! WOO.

Lastly, this irritating asshole, that looks like small boy. LOL.

Ystd was a blastttttttttttttttttttt! xD
NYAA bronze award > Pastamania @ tamp with them > Slack @ ehub > The Crazies > Zik's house > HSH ;)
Lazy to elaborate but, I love ystd. Hehe. Anw, my tumblr's alive again! Go go go check it out. Mwahahahha.
+, my nuffnang ads are back! Help me click it, and I won't disappoint you on updating this blog :-D
K, bb. Love you guyzzzz xoxo.

What hurts the most was being so close.

2010-07-21T20:29:00.000+08:00

Taken ystd @ mua awesome house using the awesome-est web in the world for now. (Y)
Cow/Dog/Pig FTW! \m/ Winxwinx to both ;))
All I can describe ystd was: Best of the week for now. Hehe ;) I mean they rly made my day. Like totally! We video-ed ourselves doing freestyle, laugh, pictures, iphone!

Chemistry test tmr, I don't know if I would pass thou' I just did some last min. studying :(
Oh and, today was...... pretty much normal only until after school. Sing sing guitar guitar eat eat laugh laugh. I love everyone who made my day! :>
I'm totally singing like mad now, and mommy thinks I'm nuts. Hehehehehehehe. I love it (Y)!
K, bb. I'm gna update twit, stop singing read my book.
(Oh yes, one last note: I'm turning into a bookworm! I love reading real story! *inserts heartshape*!)

I need to talk to someone.

2010-07-07T21:10:00.001+08:00

Taken during bbq! ;) Totally fun! (Y)

Lucky to have them ^, lucky to have my 6 other lovelies, lucky to have my best brudder, lucky to have my awesome family, and lucky to have my wonderful cousin.
I mean like, nowadays there's so many weird accidents happening, be it fatal or non-fatal. Who know the next minute I might be gone, or even the next day?
Everything's so weird and screwed up now. School, me, studies. I can't freaking get anything inside my mind.
I really don't wish the dance assembly performance to come so quickly, I may faint on the stage. Ugh :@
So, I shall end off with a fact that I am a ....... fat cow, bb. *waves*

You're a changed person.

2010-07-03T16:41:00.002+08:00

♥
Hey babe :) Its our Happy 2 years 6 months today!
Surprisingly we were friends for so long, it'll soon be our third year together as bestfriend.
We've gone thru thick and thin tgt during sec 1 and sec 2 which I can nvr forget..
"I forget bring maths ws!" "Then I pei you tell t'cher I never bring ah" "Steady steady okay! Thanks ah" "You that time also pei me ma, fair fair." (Yes its from my twitter!)
It works every time if one of us forget to bring, even if it's super urgent. Hehe.
Thou' we're in different class now, we didn't drift far or much right?
And, I miss you :( I hate your SYF a lot, HAHA.
Lastly: I love love love you vvvvvvv. much you bitch!! And many things to tell you k! ;)
K, I think my dedication is very long,naggy,gay,but cool (Y)

Anyway bbq was fun ystd :) Gna elaborate more once I got the picture from Syafiqah :)
Stay over @ cousin's chalet ystd, going back later for his birthday celebration!
So till here lovelies, my nuffnang is in need of YOUR clicks! :D

Drastic change in you. I don't know if I can accept it and be like how we are in the past. I'm sorry.

Withered roses.

2010-06-28T19:55:00.000+08:00

(26 June's: Day out with mommy+cousin to 313@somerset! I was the only one who bought a dress. Hehe ;) Love mommy the most! <3)

Hello monday, hello school, hello 3/2, hello seven lovelies, hello you. :)
Back to school again, woke up on time today. Just today.. Its always the first day that I could wake up on time when the alarm rings~
I was super excited, but my hair was pretty screwed up, I was laughing my way to school/parade grnd/class room/everywhere! Gna start running arnd again! Weeeeeee~
And then, new semester, new timetable, but.. lucky sitting arrangement was exactly the same! ;)
Oh and.. One more chinese t'cher in my class now due to i-d-k what reason, and T'cherLee told her my bad things :( How sad. Leaving bad impression to her before the start of lessons.
I think my post is super duper humpty dumpty sat on the wall humpty dumpty had a great fall all the king horses all the king men couldn't put humpty dumpty together again long! K, bb. Xoxo :>

Temporary.

2010-06-24T17:25:00.001+08:00

I miss miss miss three/two ♥!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Camwhore,sleep,play,shout,laugh, ;> I wnaaaaa go back school, but nonono to studying :-(

I miss slack-yyyy lessons and periods :-( Where I don't have to study just play eat sleep. HAHAHHAHHA.

My sexy mates who is always there in class for me ;-) Although they're very irritating at times, but still, best best! (Y). And, SHARING SWEEETS or whatever food we have ^^V

This asshole who is always there in class, but is always an ass ;> Who's willing to slack in the toilet with me, run around level three like mad woman. Many many more. Babeeee, see ya soon alright! Love you!

K, bb. I'm feeling very not happy not sad not angry quite hungry. I need to go serangoon tmrw. :-( I hope 26th's clique outing will be a pass, or I'll kill everyone in my clique....................................

Cold hard truth.

2010-06-22T21:59:00.000+08:00

VALERIE THIS IS FOR YOU. THEY STILL SELL THIS BISCUIT OKAY. AND IT TASTE YUMMY, BUT NOT AS NICE AS LAST TIME ONE :-(

Went 313@somerset with shirley ystd. :-) It was rather a window shop day for us~ And, we were damn pro. We walk from 313 all the way to Fep. Pro or what?

Finally had my drink: Mango Lingo @ Fep after so long. Mmmmm, shiok. Window shop again. But this time, I couldn't resist buying HWShorts. :-) So yup, stupid me buy it @ the price of 27.90 -.- Ya, to me its ex. HAHA. But still I'm happy!

Had pastamania for dinner! So long since I ate that. It seems like I've done quite a number of things I haven been doing ystd. Happy happy ^^V. Took train back with our sore tired feets. Hm.

Cold hard truth.. It seems like somethings are better not to be known. It rly hurts in a way when I heard it. That's my tough side. I'll not tell you how painful I felt when I heard it. And, every single time I rmb/thought about it. I feel so.... f cked up. Why in the world is life such a bitch.

I wna go shopping with my mommy and daddy so I don't have to pay for it and feel a pinch in my heart >:( HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE. I'm lazy to continue. And, if there's any nuffnang ads click it for me babyyyyy. Love ya. Bb!

Fat cat meets small dog.

2010-06-20T12:17:00.000+08:00

Today's Father's day! :-) HAPPY FATHERS' DAY TO ALL FATHERS OUT THERE! 父亲节快乐♥
Cooked crepe w/ strawberry + nutella for my daddy today. Felt sooooo happy I succeeded. Awesome crap \m/. Tasted weird but mom thinks its alright. I'm being long winded here. Hehe.

Taken when I met this ass to do hmrk tgt. Surprisingly, I wrote out my long long essay! :-) But didn't complete a lot. Decided not to touch on my physics + chem. Just do a little~ Ooolalala. School's gna start soon totally not excited :-((((((((

Currently awaiting for:
>Val's to town outing on 21st!
>Clique outing on the 26th! (Hopefully this one comes true~)
>Adventure trip with ass ruiyi on I dk when!
>To town with Shirley on 24th! (I think so :s)
>Shopping with mommy next Sunday! Or online-shopping will do :-)
~~>SCHOOL TO REOPEN!!~~ -.- No I lied. I dw school to open so fast. That's crap. A month just fly pass like this.

Bb, till here. I think I've got bad news from Val................ Shit >:(

Roses are red, violents are blue.

2010-06-16T23:07:00.003+08:00

Ystd was Huneybear && fish tenth month :-) So happy tenth month && a day huney! I love love you, hehe :$ ♥ Thank you for a sexyaye day ystd!

So we met at ehub, proceeded to Just Acia after standing outside their door for a few minutes. LOL. As usual we spent more than an hour inside talking, eating, and the free flow drinks (specially for vkpy!). Val got... 3 epic fail, while I got.. less than her for sure! :-))

She totally disgrace herself while she took the ice-cream, and we laughed like some mad girls who never eat ice-cream before. &&, the lady knew what bad evil thing I did for valerie :s So paiseh.

Then went to the dusty corner where we got our ass so damn dusty just by sitting down. >:\ So crap. But who cares. So we took many stupid pictures, and then we laugh and laugh and laugh and bla. So we got damn cold we went out~

VAL, SEE HERE!! We must make 21st outing a pass okay! If we fail, I'll be damn sad. Cus, I've alrdy plan properly the places we wna go. Quickly complete your hmrk k! Don't be lazy~ Hehe, 2town with val! ;-) We've got more to catch up and shop and of course pictures with S90 && pinkcam!

Went to Simei's LJS for lunch and hmrk-ing with Ongruiyi today :-) Was feeling damn cold and uncomfortable. Proceeded back to ehub to wait for Tanliying~ Bla bla, had my usual walk just now, but shorter route cus was feeling tired.

Tmrw will be a stay-home day for me I guess. Currently craving for Meegoreng&& Prima Deli's waffle. I've got lots of things to plan eh. :S Father's Day this sunday, stupid brother everything ask me decide. I wna change my blogskin... I'm lazy to continue. Till then, xoxo, bb! :-)

Not anymore.

2010-06-15T12:08:00.003+08:00

I'll never let you fall, I'll stand up with you forever, I'll be there for you through it all.

Awesome. (Y) 3 person incl. my mommy is missing in this picture~ I just know them for 3 nights, and we're all close. Well, mostly to the adults :-) Can't rly mix in with those kids except for one. But overall, I love everyone! ♥ Hehe, spot me ^^.

I've got to admit snorkeling was DAMN DAMN fun! ;-) We snorkel in the big deep clear sea with lots of fishes and and coral reefs. Superb mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. But I've got a tiny cut on my leg from I dk where after snorkeling. Hehe.

This cat spells mine. Ooolalala. 4d3n passes very fast. Thou' the last day we left the kampung but still we spend half the last day tgt~ In a blink of eye its alrdy the last day and everybody has to go home. :-( But I heard they're gna organise another trip. I like!! :-D

So most of the pictures inside the camera is me. LOL. I wanted to type smth, but I forgotten alrdy. Shit. Rmb! Now back to singapore life, no more speedboats/ferry/water/big sea/fishes/sea-turtle/kampung life/atap houses. Back to the city life with car and roads. :-(

Oh, &&, we've got nowhere to shop, so the owner's house got a lil' small mini-mart that sells A LOT A LOT of things. And everybody started shopping there. Buy their shirt, food, water, souvenirs. Everyone's damn cute. ;-) I look weird here :s

SHIOK SHIOK SHIOK. Seafood bbq on the last day. It was freaking nice, while eating the lobster. I pricked my thumb. First day food was... Unacceptable. But as time goes by,the food gets better. And we had fresh mango! Super sweet. Life there is rly nice. :-D

Last day :-( Everybody rush to take picture with the twin peak behind. If I nvr rmb wrongly the name of it. One of the aunty I'm closest to say next time come here climb the twin peak all the way to the summit! Damn excited. I wna go back there~~ The only bad thing there is the showering part, standard >:(

Otw back to Singapore*, got caught in the Singapore custom for chewing gum.Wtf right. First time in my whole life I got caught. And the aunty still tell me what, "I copy down your name ah, you lucky we nvr fine you". (In chinese). Irritating much. But still, I had a fun time there. See everybody soon! :-)

Other pictures will be up soon!
Went to Guofong's chalet after I came back. Me, wx, sy, yj, darren cnt find our place out, very stupid. Found our place, and everything. Me and wh stole ry's/cyrus's 10bux :-) Hehehehhee. Hsh by car from ry's dad. Oooooo. Meeting val later then wx/sy (I think!). My longest post?? K, bb, xoxo!

Heavy heart.

2010-06-11T04:33:00.001+08:00

Paradise till fourteenth. Bb, xoxo. Rmb to miss me. ;-) I won't be bringing my phone also. Takecare lovelies. &&, My 123th post.

I don't want history to repeat itself.

2010-06-08T20:32:00.001+08:00

When you come upon crazy retarded friends like ^ them. (Incl me!!) Its rly fun going out with them no matter how irritating they can be :-D (Smth irrelevant: I tip-toed in this picture! LOL.) If I didn't know some (not rly some la, most) of you guys, maybe life won't be as fun/awesome.

I think I'm rly cute, HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA. Be jealous. I'm cuteeeeeeee. Okay, enough. I look gay in the right side picture but I look like a cat on the left side one ;-) Ooolalala.

So I got a feeling that history gna repeat itself once again. And yes, it did. I don't know what I did to make me (preferably us) go thru all this. Obstacle in life to make me more mature/independent? What crap, I've been going thru not only once or twice but more than that. But still, I'm gna live life to the fullest and not let you pull me down to the ground. Bb asshole.

When I always thought that I could depend on you, I was wrong. I was rly rly wrong. I don't know why everybody's so weird nowadays. Or is it me and my weirdness that is coming back?

New ending dance steps. Very very fast, and I need to catch up fast. I keep forgetting the behind steps. And its total crap. I hope I don't screw it up. *cross fingers!!* Anyway, I loveeeeeee my dancemates very very the much y'know ;-) *winxwinxx* ♥ Last practice for this holiday tmrw, 9 - 12 am AGAIN. Crap.

I'm currently on a very healthy diet (for me ah), but still my weight seems to be hanging @ the same digit. And I don't seem to be any smaller or whatever shit. :-( Right now, I feel like eating ice-cream, but that isn't on my sexyaye diet plan!! How how how, or should I just eat tmrw? And maybe skip dinner or smth.. Good idea? Okay, I must rly control myself eh, stupid fat ass.

I wonder who reads my blog, and reads every single thing I type. I'll feeel so honored eh?? I would gladly love every single of you who stalks me. :-) I admit its a lil' bored thou' and, I'll change the skin soon~ Rmb to click on my nuffnang ads if you saw kkkkk! Xoxo, bb! *waves frantically*

I'm shit with words.

2010-06-06T18:33:00.001+08:00

4th June outing was awesome. Tons and tons of crazy pix taken, esp. @night :-D Me, sandra, jo went Coasta Sand swimming pool took lots of crazy jump shots and sorts. (y) I like! (Most of them with Sandra, so I need2quickly rush/blow her2send me!!)

5th June was rather... Weird? I dk if it was my moodswings coming back to haunt me or is it just me. But wtv it is there's still pictures! But not that much. Still, I love everybody that made my day :-)

And I'm srsly growing fat. Countless of ppl keep saying me, Jingyu why you so fat! LOL. :'-( Okay okey! I get it alrdy, I'll go exercise more. (Yaya, talk only.)

Oh dearest duck! Pinky promise we're not gonna drift k. Don't think so much. Is your stupid moodswing that keeps on making everybody very 难做人! Y'know not? Tsk, must fight that mood-swings away k! The 6 of us will support you. And if you realise I'm like dedicating to you in every post. So stop thinking that we'll drift or whatever shit. Omg crap!!

&&&&&, did I mention this person ^ there cabbed me home twice in a row? Hehe, thanx baby~ *Winxwinx* ;-) See you tmrw for dance........ EARLY IN DA MORNING!

I'm rly addicted to watching shows online! I've got like another... 13 MOVIES TO DL! I hope I can finish all that before my holidays end :-( Also, by the time my ice-cream will be all inside my cute lil' tummy! Mmmm, omnomnom sexyayes!

Lastly! I srsly need2quickly complete my hols hmrk. I've got a whole stack of it awaiting for me. Ugh >:-( What a holiday. But nvm, I shall do it asap! :-) C'mon Jingyu, y'know you can do it for sure. So yup, till here. K, bb!

Substitue. Stranger. Who am I?

2010-06-01T21:54:00.001+08:00

Big sexy cactus (Y).

My wonderful group members on that day. :-) We were purely being slackers, taking peektures but we still had many newspapers to collect!!

Jump shot #1 :-) Not rly the first one, we've got a few more but kinda fail :s

Finally everybody jumped up high with spastic faces :-D Awesomeeeee!!

Left to right: Sonny/Ducky/Me/Dearie/Me/Ass! :-)

Let's all rmb our dance steps properly and let the performance be a wonderful one k! :-) Don't give up so fast and practice more aye. Don't worry. You sure can do it. Rmb-ing the steps and making it smooth not a one day/two day thing. So.. PRACTICE HARD. Me and Sandra and the rest will support you (Y)!

I quite love today's dance session. It was rly fun. Thou' we were late. Love the steps. Hopefully I can catch up and manage it! :-D

When sexy S90 appears. It means taking cool pictures with my cool friends. HAHAHAH. I kinda think we er.. ROCK? \m/!

Bestfriend and huneybear: Luckily we didn't drift apart man! And, I want clique outings plxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.

Oh ya, I must rly control my diet and my amount of money spend on food nowadays. I'm like a monster? LOL. I still love food (Y). And I'll eat as much as I can EVERY-SINGLE-DAY.

Ending off with a very very nice pic. I like this. No idea why, but I just like it :-D

Must. Do. Well. In. Dance. So. I. Won't. FAIL. And. Be. A. Total. Disgrace. ;-)
I wish I'm not a substitute in your heart. I rly only wish for that. I don't need any other things. I just dw any lies. Hahahahhahahhahahahahahaha. K, till here. Byebye *waves frantically!*

Once again we're all together happily.

2010-05-30T16:32:00.003+08:00

Birthday boy: HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY EUGENE NG :-D Hope you love/enjoy ystd's birthday. Hehe.

I look er weird?

Shihying didn't manage to come with us ystd since she was sick, get well soon dearie!

The picture on the left's awesome eh? :-) I like I love (Y)

Girls girls girls. Spend too much time in the toilet, :-D Gagagaga,

Science center was rly fun! I even brought home my sexy science center balloon despite losing it to Shan thrice? LOL. Crap. The last balloon was gotten back by Aaron, so thankz yaw! :-)

And then we run around playing different types of things inside taking picture non-stop. Some got seperated. Tsk :s

Plus, I like the picture on the left again. Sexyyyyyaye. OOOO. My first balloon that I snatch from that ass.

Oh dear KWX, we won't drift la idiot. We're one whole clique. And don't forget. MY SHOULDER ABSORBENT LA HOR. Anything CRY HERE :-D

Dance dance dance on the June hols. Gonna work damn hard with ^ and Kwx. :-D Hopefully the 3 of us can make it in. Loveee!!

Oh and! We went Japanese Garden in the afternoon. Cus' that was our initial plan, but due to the stupid HOT weather we change plan to Science center. Like cool/steady only hor ^^

I WANT ALL MY NEXT FEW CLIQUE OUTINGS TO BE SUCCESSFUL *cross finger, prays damn hard*

Went out with mommy jux now in the morning for breakfast, awesome awesome tasty pancakes.(Y) And then headed to bloodbank with her > pray@temple > HSH ^^
3 ADVERTISEMENTS CAN BE FOUND IN 101BIGCOWS! Help me click all three aye. :-D Mad love you guys *heartshape*

Finally we break free from all this.

2010-05-27T19:46:00.000+08:00

No more unhappy posts. Unless something grave happen. BUTTTTTT. I doubt so there will be any. :-)

Why so? HAHAH. That's because: sevenlovelies has finally sort things out properly!! :-D

I'm rly fugging happy. I swear. Today's like the best day of my life. Last day of school before June hols start, just nice we sort things out properly so there'll be no more conflicts during the hols which will spoil our mood. Totally awesome. Today marks a wonderful wonderful sexy sexy bomb day. :-) I love I love.

Also, to this girl up there. Please cheer up and be the happy person I know alright. Anything 97.....3 will be ~~twentyfour~~ hours not. I'll be here for you no matter what. Even thou' I don't rly know what's going on, and the full story. But I hope those advices do work. And, always always BE H-A-P-P-Y :-D Love you.

June hols seems very pack, but it seems very empty too. Everybody's having lots of camp. And I wonder what will I be doing when they are at camp. Ughhhhhhhhh. :@:@:@ On the other hand, I love stalkers. I think its cool. Hehehe. Lastly:
Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee help me click on my nuffnang ads if you're free/awesome/wonderful and you love my blog or me or whatever :-)))))))))

No more. I mean it..

2010-05-25T20:18:00.000+08:00

I can do nothing about it. Nothing. I should just focus on like one or two friendship and that's it. I must stop all this nonsense. C'mon Jingyu, how old are you now. GOING FIFTEEN still so immature still so dumb. Get a life, focus on studying now. Your results ain't any good. So just stfu and study.

When I say I miss the friendship I use to own with anyone in the 6 of us. I rly mean it. Even if the memory between the both of us lasted for like a month or so only. But what can I do now when no matter how hard I seem to try, nobody seem to be able to see the effort. Or maybe, to any of you, I just didn't try hard enough.
Friends come and go, true friends come and stay, and nvr easy to find.

Something happier will be today. Today's awesome. The field trip wasn't bad since there was ruiyi (HEHEHE, skipskipskipppp), shihying, arthur and the rest :-) And then dance!!! I was dreading to go in the first place, then I told myself die die must go for performance. And yes, I manage to drag myself to the dance studio. And got myself a place in the group. Awesome (y). Gonna start practicing with the rest of my mates. Love you guys. <3

Thanks for saying me and you did wake me up. Thanks. Its rly time for me to change. Yes...

Everything happens for a reason.

2010-05-20T22:39:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I don't know if being a good person is worth. It makes me feel that being the bad person don't have to feel any guilt@all when being the good person have to feel the guilt, have to handle everything him/herself. I see no point, rly. Sometimes when I'm about to give up, there's always someone beside me shouting saying no, give it one last try. And I think I should. But there's no such things as last to me since I always always try.

Its really good to hear your voice saying my name it sounds so sweet, coming from a lips of an angel hearing those words it makes me weak. Is it really very hard for someone to stay wholehearted to another party? Or is it we're just too young to say such things as forever? Or there's not such things as forever..?

At times I just feel like breaking down and cry and leave everything aside. Everything feels so heavy even the lightest matter feel so heavy suddenly. I hate it when everything comes clashing to me. But there's nothing I can stop all this from coming in. All I can is I'm just very very use to all this. Use to all this fights, arguments, conflicts, silent drift-apart. Sigh.

There are times when there are many happy moments, happy memories. But when you think back it seems like you've only got just sad memories. The fact is, everyone will have more happy memories than sad ones. Happy memories can be make, can never be forgotten as for sad ones, when time goes by it'll heal us. It may take very long, but at least we'll forget it. True? Its time to be happy. We've only got one chance to live this life, to be young to be happy to be anything we want. Why waste it over small matters, over sad memories? :-)

Its time to move, its time to forget everything, its time to learn to give in, its time to learn to be more generous, its time to learn to give more take less, its time to learn to cherish life.
K,byebye,not going school tmrw due to being damn sian. (Y). And, arthurgohweekiong lubbs to stalk me :-D

You're my sunshine

2010-05-19T21:29:00.002+08:00

Whenever memories of you flashes through my mind, I don't know when will that image of yours be fully gone. I'm alrdy halfway through forgetting you. And, you taught me so much that now, all I love is myself and no one else. I rly appreciate that part of it. Thankkiew. :-)

I wonder who am I to the world. I wonder who always try to spot me (HAHA, LOL.). I wonder who hates me so much that he/she is cursing me every single day. I wonder.. when will I be friends again with you. O yea, you, I'm referring to the one whom I've never talk to for a month or so alrdy. Sigh.

So ya, my results was alright, just that I failed 3 and I rly hope I pass all for my overall Semester 1. :-) Wish me luck aye. Hohumpig'sbum. Anyway, thanks a lot to Kwx, Aaronliew, Shan, Laris, Val, Ry for being so caring today :$.

How did our hearts connected so closely at that point of time when one party wasn't true? If I had the chance to turn time back, I would never let you touch my heart, not even a single bit. I'll stay as far away as I can from you. But maybe just a friend. If I've got the restart button with me, or I can go on hibernate, I would srsly do that.

Its awesome and wonderful how I know val thru backstage and then we all got tgt as one clique. From strangers to hi-bye friends to friends and finally to can't live w/o them friends. Maybe this is what fate means. :-) We might not know when we got tgt, but so long as we know we're tgt as a clique for as long as we can, then its the best.
7lovelies FTW♥

Life's pretty much alright. Just that I'm turning weak physically. I was totally blur and very very very stress/busy during dnt just now. Even Mr.Ang ask why am I so blur today. :s Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

O and, today when I was viewing my blog from IE, I think it looks kinda weird. It looks nicer on MF :-D
K, bye, update tmrw or what. And I've decided2update my blog daily or what. LOL.

&: plxplxplxplxplxplplxpxlpxlx help me click on my nuffnang ads. thankkiew, lubb.

Where are you?

2010-05-18T20:44:00.000+08:00

Sentosa's Trip, ♥

So ya, Sentosa Trip was awesomeeeeeeeeeee (Y). I like :-)

Also, got back results today, cried like shit due to very lousy results. Thanks ah t'chers for being so damn lenient N-O-T. Crap like shitttttttttttttttz. First time I keep crying, but what to do? Only can work hard.. Sigh. Its not like I want those damn marks when I really did study damn hard right. Ughhhh, fuck.

Which also means: Goodbye computer. Time to study. I'm going to look for a job during the June hols. And also try to study by myself. Maybe get a tuition too. Jingyu, please buck up on your studies or you'll say Hello to retain.. Also, I can bid goodbye to my sexy june hols. Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

I need to hit the gym soon and the running track. I'm really getting fatter. Thanks everyone for reminding me. HAHA :-) Plus, I need tuition asap.

I blended in, I did it once again. But sometimes I just cannot blend in to some of you. I'm sorry if I only think about myself and not you guys. But I'm really trying very hard to be the Jingyu the 6 of you know. Give me time, I'll change to someone more understanding. Love.

When you say nothing at all

2010-05-16T11:17:00.000+08:00

Sometimes humans just like to reminisce the past. But when we think back, we'll always regret somethings we do. And either start feeling guilty/bad/hoping time could turn back and so on. When the fact is: We. Can't. Do. Anything. About. It., but just move on with life and hopefully things will be the same :-)

Never will I realise or think that I'll ever get back so close with Kwx after a fight. A very very huge fight. Maybe this is what True friends meant :-D Thankkiew Kwx for everything for the past few days despite our continuous arguments and those stupid insults throwing to one another non-stop in school/public. HAHA. Lubbeuu.

DIE DIE MUST WATCH BOTH THE MOOOOOVIE! :-) Anyone willing to watch The last airbender with meeeeeee!? Winxwinx. ;-) I don't know when its coming out but, I WANT TO WATCH!! And actually see how the heck appa look like in real movies. E-x-c-i-t-e-d!!

I don't feel like we're a whole anymore. We're scattering on the inside.. And if you don't feel guilty, you won't ask. Unless you feel guilty which shows that your conscience ain't clear. I'm so tired.

I miss everything about you.

2010-05-14T12:55:00.000+08:00

Howdyyyyyyyyy Sexbombbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb! :-D

EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!! I'M GOING2BE STRESS-FREE :-) (Which also means: Welcome back to the CCA world, welcome back to the painful/torturing days.)
Anyway, I'm starting to lubb my iphone more and more. Esp. the camera apps. Not forgetting those sexy wunderful games. O, how I love my iphone. Hehehehe ;-) I'll start spamming pictures in my blog soon!!

On the other hand about other stuffs. I've got a feeling maybe, maybe, just maybe I'll try mia-ing awhile during the June hols. Too stress over f/s matters. To leave or to stay and clear up the mess again. Maybe to them there's no mess at all. But to me, there's hell lots of it awaiting for me to clear. Well, Jingyu, one more last try.. You can do it, you can.. (Y)

Lastly:

I kinda miss backstage. :-)

I did like you. (before.)

2010-05-12T22:30:00.001+08:00

Hi lovelies! :-)

I'm back to again. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH. :-D
I miss blogger. Totally no reason why.
And I'm actually using blogskins's skin~ Awesome hell!
Anyway, 2 more papers to go and I'm freeeeeeee from killer midyears.
(Something unrelated: The lightning and thunder outside is freaking me out -.-)
LAST BUT NOT LEAST: I WANT TO CHANGE MY URL :-)

Oya, plzzzzzzzzzz help me click on my nuffnangs ads on both here and on my tumblr. Lubz♥
Done, enough posting for now. K,bye sexbombz. Xoxo.

Bye.

2010-03-31T18:59:00.000+08:00

Off to JINGYUISAWESOMEZ.TUMBLR.COM

See you there stalker(s) :D
Will be back here when I'm bored of Tumblr~

Crap. Ruin. Suck.

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

2010-03-30T20:22:00.000+08:00

生日快乐! Happy Birthday to 2 person today! ☺

@jingyuisawesomez.tumblr.com!

(Posting there more often:))

K,bye,love.

习惯就好.

2010-03-24T22:15:00.001+08:00

Classroom change to level one. (Which means I don't have to climb the stairs~ And go straight to recess~) Quite fun ah since can walk around freely most of the time:) Hehe. I♥3/2!
This term, if I don't study hard and let my grades just fall or stay the same, sure dieeeeeee. So,
张婧煜加油加油加油!:D
Hm, I don't have much to update actually. Just feeling bored and so decided to post randomly:) Ohoh! MATHS getting harder and harder now ah. Sianzzzzzzzz ttm!
Andand, do see my Tumblr hey! I might make here dead and post everything there and so, huhua.
Done posting, off to Tumblr for awhile!(Y) K,bye,nights/

ROBERT PATTINSON♥♥♥

2010-03-22T22:25:00.002+08:00

Twilight Saga Eclipse♥: I must must must must watch this show!:)

CLIQUE, ARE YOU ALL READY FOR ECLIPSE!? I'M SUPER EXCITED THOU' ITS COMING ONLY ON 30TH JUNE - :(..

Okay, Bella's gonna suffer so much in this show, Mr.Edward Cullen, I'M SUPPORTING YOU! \m/\m/\m/

& ALSO..

Remember Me♥ Trailer: I also must must must must watch this show!:)
Its already out on the cinemas! Anyone want to catch this movie with me some days? Hehe. Okay, I'm super excited again!!!!!

Hi! I need to start saving money. Like seriously.. Hmmmmmmmmmm.
Anyway, bye! Heheheheh. Tumblr time~

我不配.

2010-03-21T18:18:00.000+08:00

Woke up @ 10+am today, mommy was nagging at me/brother like radio~

Reached Prima Revolving Restaurant:) Ate Dim Sum till super full, vair vair shiok!

Headed over to Universal Studio outside, took picture:> Walk around the IR, and hotel area, fab. ttm!

Gonna have a stay-over there soon with everybody, triple shiok-ness:D
Oh how great it is that school's gonna start tomorrow! (not..) I'm gonna miss my late mornings+nights. And...eating things anytime I want!
Speaking about food... My mouth has been moving non-stop since it started moving this morning. Crapcrabprawn.
K,bye! I've been updating my blog constantly. Awesome or great? Both!

宝宝爱:)

2010-03-21T00:31:00.000+08:00

(Retarded bestfriend love, ♥)
Ancient Egypt Museum (Y) with Mommy&Bestfriend:D today = Fun,fun,fun and super fun!
Oh and before the day even started, bestfriend tied scorpion for me and it was finally successful! Happy like mad cause I didn't had scorpion on my hair before. LOL.
Went over to Liang Court for Subway&random shopping:) Afterwards went over to Clarke Quay's flea market.
And so the whole day was just walking,playing,eating,picturing,laughing,WALKING:D
When I got home, I couldn't bear to remove the scorpion off my hair, stupid stupid or stupid? Stupid. (N)

You're going here! <<< (L), here.

Baby love.

2010-03-18T23:09:00.000+08:00

Met ValerieHuney @ Ehub today. Did our homework @ Burger King(Y) till around 5~ Waited for the POA students to end their lesson. Had dinner @ Whitesands KFC together :)
Met some retard just now for my meelo icecream. Hehe, thanks ah!:D
I need a new schoolbag please :( I don't know which one to get nowwwwwz. Shitttttt.
I've also decided to keep my blog super alive, but I guess my Tumblr would be more alive:)
K,bye! And... I'm so g-a-y.

Reaching perfect.

2010-03-17T02:44:00.000+08:00

Remaining Webcam shots on Fb @ here! :')

Currently @ Cousin's house! So long sine I came here and stay-over huh.
Webcam-ed with some Retarded person just now. Made me smile infront of the computer like stupid oniiiz. Hehe, thanks ah! :D
Ruiyi+Amirah came over today, wanted to bake, end up all lazy+no mood, so we did MAC&CHEEEESE. Tasted like.. Not really nice thou'. Talk,talk,picture,picture,song,song. We were all super high+crazy, hehe.
Thanks for the A-W-E-S-O-M-E DAY!
Pictures with Valerie will be up soon after I take from her! :')

Maybe?

2010-03-14T19:50:00.001+08:00

Yes, hopefully it'll be.
All the Maybe(s) are coming back to haunt me and scare the shit out of me. Sometimes I don't even know what you're exactly thinking. Put all the blame on me then. I didn't attitude you at all, maybe I did, which is because you did so first. Okay maybe that's your temper, but that's not the you I know on day 1. I guess the day 1 you has gone just recently..
Everything's changing. Even the slightest change could affect the world.

One month passed/

2010-03-12T23:10:00.000+08:00

TUMBLRRRRRRR @ JINGYUISAWESOMEZ (Using both blog&tumblr, but more updates on tumblr.)

今天是我们的第一个月, Thank you for everything from the start. Thou' today everything's like a rush, but still it turns out okay. :) Me ♥ you.
Love, 张Jingyu.

Today was awesome, from morning till night everything was fun, and also tiring.

THREETWOTHREETWONUMBERONE (Y) Boooomz!

Cus I care for this f/s.

2010-03-11T22:03:00.004+08:00

100th post :D
Ah, Cross Country tomorrow. Cheering Competition afterwards. (3/2 FTW!) Going out later on. Gonna be a: Busy+tiring day!
I really dislike my Social Studies teacher more&more as days go by. Mega GL -.-
Okay, anyway, I've decided to be a good girl& study real hard! :D
I want to go shopping with mommy this Saturday or so! :)
I've created Tumblr, link will be up soon :)

Person A,(Humans do change, and what have you turn into now? I do hope Backstage will bring us back once again. We use to be so close, but now? Sigh, maybe its really partly my fault. But my dear friend, I'm still here for you when you need me.)
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Person B,(I do care for this friendship thou' its just the start and you may not even care. I only hope you do care. Cause I really really do.)
=
(All I wish for now is: H-o-p-e.)

Take it.

2010-03-08T21:10:00.000+08:00

I'm really either stupid or idiot. I swear. Take my life away then, its no use in here anymore. I'm always not thinking. I'm always stupid and stupid and stupid. And really super stupid. What a fortunate life I have, yet, I'm always asking for more..

担心.

2010-02-28T15:23:00.002+08:00

I think its very irritating when you want a song so badly and its stuck in your head for days and days, yet.. you don't know the title :(
Okey, whuatever it is..

生日快乐亲爱的翁蕊仪! :D

You're finally fifteen my dearest bestfriend~ Thou' ystd might not be the best one you can get for your 15th, but I hope you enjoy ley.

And, don't ever ever cry on your big day hao ma? :> Hehe.

Okey, me love you laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, ♥

HAPPIE BIRTHDAY BESTIEZZZZZZZZZZZ!

Thou' no one knows what will happen next, I'm still worried. But I'm not telling anyone, and I'm not going to show it out.

Maybe..

2010-02-23T22:58:00.000+08:00

Maybe it was really my fault that all this happen. Maybe I'm just trying to act smart and balance everything up the way I want. Maybe I'm just a sensitive bitch who thinks that everything is going against me. Maybe all those maybe(s) stated was true.
But, I'm already trying to be the best of the best, maybe it wasn't enough.
Still, I'm sorry for whatever I've done wrong.
I love you.

Asses down the streets, hehe.

2010-02-17T19:06:00.000+08:00

I don't want to get sick nor have flu/sorethroat or any fink sickness.

School don't really rock, just that my friends at school are truly cool, just like me.

Life ain't really wonderful sometimes when I think how I'm being treated by some people.

But well, life's still cool at times when there's girlfriends/close friends/love ones :>

Oh and, I think twitter's cool. Gonna download some cool stuffs for it. Woo.

Teeehehehehehehehe, k,byebaiz! ~

I'm happy.

2010-02-11T21:09:00.002+08:00

I am a happy little Jingyu that smiles everyday.
I find the Earth becoming a square soon, haha. I'm stupid and retarded.
Ok, I really don't know what to post, byebaiz~ :) :) :)

Thank you for everything :) I'm happy to know you, promise.
Thank you to my dear friend too.

开心药丸.

2010-02-09T20:08:00.003+08:00

I'm going and willing to be your happy pill. :)
I'm not going to have any doubts on you ever again, I'm going to trust you with my whole heart like how I did previously. I really meant: Wholeheartedly.
And also, please be happy everyday.

Wonderland no more.

2010-02-07T10:48:00.000+08:00

I always tell people to not let small things affect their mood yet I'm the one being affected. I don't want to be unhappy, I want to be happy everyday. But like some people say, somethings cannot be avoided. I'm going to stop avoiding, I'm going to face whatever I have to, I'm going to be happy whenever I need to. Even if I know its impossible to stay happy always, but I'm not letting anyone/anything to knock me down. I know I have repeated this a few times, but I'm trying hard. I'm going to be happy.
(Please stop lying to me if y'know you're gonna do that. I have already trust you wholeheartedly. I don't expect anything, I just don't want you to lie if you're gonna do that.. Really, I don't.)

Happy day.

2010-02-05T20:36:00.001+08:00

From tomorrow onwards, I, Teo Jingyu WILL NOT touch on Fastfood for 1 month! :D (Hopefully I can make it and control myself!)
And stupid timetable change again, :( But happy thing is D&t practical remains the same! Last 3 period on Wednesday. Happy happy mua~ :D
Okay, I find today a very happy day thou' after school was a little sad. But things went out okay during dance, hehe. Me love dancezxzx.
Next, I wanna go out tomorrow! Hehe, k, byebai. I don't know what to post~

Happy 25th months Bestfriend, ♥

2010-02-03T20:56:00.001+08:00

快乐两年一个月翁蕊仪
We've been bestfriends for already 2 years 1 months :D
Time passes so fast, yes we're both in different class, but I didn't forget today is our special day, hehe. Sounds gay huh,but,I don't care!
We may be in different class but look we're both still so close! I'll continue proving the rest wrong that being in different class won't drift. Hehe.
Thanks for being there whenever I needed someone, but stop being negative okay!
I love you best friend,♥
I will post the leftover airport pictures soon aye :>
Today's a fun day for me since Dnt was acceptable and time passes quite fast. But still my Social Studies teacher really really suck >: Ah, irritating her. Ok, I'm lazy to continue any shit.
Oh, and I hope dance will be able to make it for the CNY audition on friday! :D :D I'm feeling excited thou' we haven really choreograph our dance steps.
K, byebaibye!
And, I've already decided to walk straight and stop walking on path with so many obstacles blocking my way. I'm awesome! :)

The two00eight' us.

2010-02-02T20:47:00.000+08:00

I was thinking about the past, and I stumble upon your blog once again and read back your archives again. I admit, I read it a lot a lot of times already. And I, being a big stupid lagger, I saw it only after I realise you own a damn blog. (Which means after we parted ways, after so many months later!) I felt like a total bitch making you suffer for so damn long. I don't know how many times have I been apologising to you secretly and in my blog after reading it. I feel really really guilty. I don't know how to apologise to you like directly. It feels weird I guess. From the start, every single thing weren't fake. Everything was true. I only lied once. Which is when you ask whether its true, I lied to make you move on faster. I thought you did, but, I didn't know till last year. I'm a really sucky girl. If I got the power to turn time back, I would really really not make the same mistake ever again. If I can apologise to you, see your reaction and brainwash you what I say before, I would do that. But everything's to late, I'm a selfish bitch who don't think about you but only me and me and me.. After now, you're the best anyone can meet, can be with and everything. Thou' I know its too late for me to apologise but still, I swear I'm sorry for whatever thing I've done to hurt you in anyway before.

Just another fairytale.

2010-02-01T21:26:00.000+08:00

Another part, I still got a lot more but I'm super lazy. Shall continue soon! Hehe. ^.^
Its year 2010: I won't let tears overtake me ever again. I'm going to be stronger than the 2009 and earlier on Teo Jingyu. I'm going to be different and change into a better person! I'm going to be happy everyday! I'm not letting anything or anyone affect my mood so easily.
I still ♥ to eat a lot of food!

I WANT TO BE STRONG! 我要坚强! AKU INGIN MENJADI KUAT! :D :D :D

I really don't know what to do now, to believe or not to believe? There's so many unsolved problems piling up day by day >: Sigh..

What if that's the wrong step?

2010-01-31T17:57:00.001+08:00

(First part of the pictures. Will continue uploading the rest tomorrow or so :))
A long day out with bestfriend yesterday! Shiok,fun,happy,crazy!
• Met @ 359, train to Simei to collect her stuffs.
• Ate longjohn, then bused back to my house.• Played many iphone games together then finally decided to go to Changi Airport!• Bused down to Terminal 3, skytrain-ed to and fro, bought our sexy stud landyard! • Camwhore like there's no ending, ended up with a total of 1hundred&80five pictures! • Slack inside the second entrance of the carpark, headed to the superempty toilet and started DANCING around and taking pictures again!• Then around 6plus, train+bus back home again to charge my poor dead phone! • Headed to central to meet Sandra and send Ruiyi back home! Slack around then back home @ 10++
I'm getting more and more afraid of walking forward. I'm going to take just small baby steps from now on. Please be different among the rest..

That missing part in me would be you.

2010-01-29T19:09:00.003+08:00

"Love at first sight never thought in could happen to me
But you made me believe" @ lyricsmode.com.

Lazy to elaborate on camp so I'll just summarise all! :)
Day 1: Arrive feeling sian > Lunch was reallyultramega suckyyyy (or maybe we all just not use to it for the first day) > Played teambuilding games! > Dinner was sososo > much more better!NIGHT ACTIVITY WAS CUUULZ! (The first time I really blindfold muaself, LOL.) Day 2: All I got to say was..CAMPFIRE = AMAZING LIKE HELL YEAH!! 3/2 ROCK YOUR ASZS \M/Many class went super super high on that day! Shiok shiok shiok, nobody can stop all of us from shouting, hehe Took peektures with everybody everyday, and finally on the last day, manage to take picture with Trainer S. But didn't manage to take it with Trainer L. But I don't know where's all the peektures so I just gotta wait~Shall update another time with all the pictures (if I can find) soon! Hehe, byebye! Oh, & I kinda miss camp hey! I feel so weird, something's missing. I'm still waiting and hoping it'll come true..

Faith and trust.

2010-01-26T22:39:00.001+08:00

Camp officially starts tomorrow all the way to 29th! :D (Miss me people, hehe, lovez<3!)
Hmmm, first thing first: HAPPY 5THTEEN BIRTHDAY AARONLIEWYONGJIE! You're finally a fifteen year old man. Hehe. I'm still as young as a ... (I don't know what shit, LOL)I've got totally no idea what to post. School is like usual? Lol. Dance is still a torture.Ohoh, and my favourite peekture taken on friday will be up after camp or what! :>K, byebai, I'm going off now! Hopefully camp will be fun and great according to my senior! :) Loves.

♥: I lose faith in you already.
Maybe its me, maybe its you. I'm losing faith in you and you bit by bit. I'm trying to think the good way and not the bad way. Person 1: We've drag way too long. I don't know what are you really thinking. Why can't you just tell me what is it that you're thinking. Who're you even refering it to? Person 2: I've read, and mua ♥ sank right down. I don't know why either. Maybe it just shot me. (I've let too many people down. I'm sorry.)

Alice in wonderland.

2010-01-23T18:33:00.003+08:00

Tons and tons of pictures to upload! From Hawpar Villa outing with my mommy all the way till Schooltime yesterday! (Excluding outing with Ory+Sandra's) I'm just gonna pick'n'choose!

(Day out with mommy to Hawpar Villa! )

(Day out with family )

I shall upload those taken yesterday tomorrow or what Very lazy to do that now!
Yesterday was fun + fun + fun, gave dance a miss and slack around, walk + eat a lot, shiokness!
Slack around with Ruiyi,Amirah,her boyf&co. till around 730! Fun fun,
Camwhore around with them while see the rest play ball! I like I like I like to hang out with my bestie
I got a lot of maths homework awaiting for me to complete now! So byebye,

(If you're happier with them, don't force yourself to be with us. I've got nothing more to tell you.)